“Hey..
Idk but I'm feeling a lot lately..lik evrything is going bad uk.. whenever a thing happens..nd later whn I cope up with it..nd hope..motivate myself..saying..uk all happens for a reason..for some good..thrll always be smtg on its way..worst thn the previous one..thtll end up making me feel more shit thn ever..nd probably it's been lik a loop nd I'm stuck..my efforts aren't mattering..nd tht ends up making me feel lik.. probably I'm the unluckiest one..
Nd tdy..now..got into a argument with my parents..nd..got screwed so badly..never knew would hear those statements ever..frm my father..
It's just lik uk..whn u strt giving ur point in an argument..nd thn whn thy can't just accept it or understand it..thyll just use all ur failures..all the things u hv gone through... against u.. saying some of the harshest things not evn minding..how those might effect u..nd thn u turn numb..lik the stab has had its effect nd now.. u can no longer fight..
Nd whn all of these happen..whn ur in ur lowest phase..lik my closest ones..just said..it's me..im the reason for everything tht went wrong..etc etc
Lik god ik..ik my efforts just went down the drain..i couldn't make it..tht doesn't imply u poke me with tht..every single chance u get..nd make me go back to tht blackhole..nd thn act as if ntg occured ryt..”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Hy l got u i have been in the same situation. Hearing from ur own parents feels terrible but u got this u know about you. Don't take everything into ur mind. Forgive them for the words so u can move forward in ur life. U can change their perspective. It's in ur hand...lots of love to u