“What do you do ur who do you run to if life feels heavy on you and you have nobody to rilie on ??? Although you do have great frnds who can help you when you tell dem ur struggling yet speaking or sharing to dem feels like an utter burden for dem? And when you suddenly go into a depressed episode where you have that numb feeling but dont how to explain it to anyone so you isolate urself frmm everyone... or even you feel like ur done with lifeee ???”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Journal it!!!! Even though you are surrounded by many people sometimes you feel empty and you can't even express the feeling to your loved ones.
So write it down in a book, daily, anytime you feel sad angry it maybe anything write it.
Your thoughts in mind will all be dumped in that book, you'll start feeling less heavy.
Give it a try.