This may get a bit long please excuse me for that. Thanks for reading 🙏🏻

So here is a thing I had since childhood and it is bothering me a lot till date ,and now I am nearly 25 years old..
As my faint memory calls when I was 4 years old in kindergarten... I am could not say four lines we had to say in front of the class... It continued in school, I kept feeling anxious,so I kept avoiding going in front of people. It never bothered me until I graduated junior college. I was constantly side line by all my classmate I don't know why I really tried a lot to social as ever since I was a kid but everyone had their own friends and I was no one's friend. I was just a kid who people goes to come to when they are to borrow homework or they needed something to borrow. I was the one in the group who always did everything by myself. At 1.5 got tired of asking people to cooperate so I did everything myself and let people get credits without doing a single thing in the project. I never really had someone who I called a true friend.
I join the technical degree after covered but things went down hell and I was caught up very deep in anxiety and depression. so bad. There was an incident where there was a debate and I suddenly started getting scared for no apparent reason and my breathing got faster in I fell the air around me get progressively colder and faint like I was getting heated. My hand was shaking uncontrollably so I got up and when out of the class my professor noticed and she followed me to ask what was wrong with me I just brush It of saying that I felt nauseous so I came out of the class.
I struggled with this for 2 years until I switched my degree to another one.
But this never stopped when I kept eaten when she is now I am in my masters degree which is technically very rigorous and I am unable to comprehend this syllabus so I desperately need help. But here as well no one seems to be interested in talking because they have their own groups and friends, I approached people of your times but then it felt like I am only approaching them when I need some notes etc. this has been weighing me down for quite a lot of time but I feel really really isolated and alone despite my efforts . My message box is always empty unless I reach out to someone first and you know those who are supported leave friends only talk when they need something. It's really difficult to carry my daily life with all these thoughts
I feel anxious all the time.
Whenever I approach someone with the thought that I should share what I am going through but all these is that you just need to come down and go ahead without thinking that much. This does not help at all so my mind things that why bother telling anyone if we were to suffer anyway. And I am very aware of the fact that no one accept me can save myself out of this but it still feels like why am I like this?... At this point I am tired waiting for the better times to come

Question

This may get a bit long please excuse me for that. Thanks for reading 🙏🏻

So here is a thing I had since childhood and it is bothering me a lot till date ,and now I am nearly 25 years old.. 
As my faint memory calls when I was 4 years old in kindergarten... I am could not say four lines we had to say in front of the class... It continued in school, I kept feeling anxious,so I kept avoiding going in front of people. It never bothered me until I graduated junior college. I was constantly side line by all my classmate I don't know why I really tried a lot to social as ever since I was a kid but everyone had their own friends and I was no one's friend. I was just a kid who people goes to come to when they are to borrow homework or they needed something to borrow. I was the one in the group who always did everything by myself. At 1.5 got tired of asking people to cooperate so I did everything myself and let people get credits without doing a single thing in the project. I never really had someone who I called a true friend. 
I join the technical degree after covered but things went down hell and I was caught up very deep in anxiety and depression. so bad. There was an incident where there was a debate and I suddenly started getting scared for no apparent reason and my breathing got faster in I fell the air around me get progressively colder and faint like I was getting heated. My hand was shaking uncontrollably so I got up and when out of the class my professor noticed and she followed me to ask what was wrong with me I just brush It of saying that I felt nauseous so I came out of the class. 
I struggled with this for 2 years until I switched my degree to another one.
But this never stopped when I kept eaten when she is now I am in my masters degree which is technically very rigorous and I am unable to comprehend this syllabus so I   desperately need help. But here as well no one seems to be interested in talking because they have their own groups and friends, I approached people of your times but then it felt like I am only approaching them when I need some notes etc. this has been weighing me down for quite a lot of time but I feel really really isolated and alone despite my efforts . My message box is always empty unless I reach out to someone first and you know those who are supported leave friends only talk when they need something. It's really difficult to carry my daily life with all these thoughts
I feel anxious all the time. 
Whenever I approach someone with the thought that I should share what I am going through but all these is that you just need to come down and go ahead without thinking that much. This does not help at all so my mind things that why bother telling anyone if we were to suffer anyway. And I am very aware of the fact that no one accept me can save myself out of this but it still feels like why am I like this?... At this point I am tired waiting for the better times to come

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Heyyyyyyyyy you're not alone okaayyyyyy I'm with youuu, we can be friends okay anddddd you can share your ig then you can share your problems