“The thing is that, today we had kali puja or diwali you can say. And today I went to a temple (sashan kali) where me and my mom were giving a puja. Plus it gets very crowded in this place, and pushing occurs alot. So I was behind my mom in the crowd and there was a man behind me, OLD MAN, and he sometimes suddenly started touching my waist, then DOWN to my waist line, a bit to my intimate part, I couldn't get out of there at that moment because it was extremely crowded. I could only shift. And I shifted a bit to the side so that his hands get off of me. We were giving Pushpanjali (we place our messages to the goddess in flowers and give it to the statue of the idol), as we were not allowed to throw the flowers towards ma's feet (usually its not allowed cuz it causes a mess and some messages may not get delivered) the basket was being passed on, and at that moment, pushing between everyone got much more intense, and i felt this guy VIOLATING ME. (please I'm really sorry if I use some cursed words, I'll try as much as not to) He was exactly behind me, his thing was near my ass, and he started pushing, like brushing himself against my dress, on there, PLUS the crowd was so bad I just couldn't move. When I was placing my flowers in the basket, as I withdrew my hand, it brutally hit his hand and he let out a frustrated growl. And just that moment the crowd loosened, and i pushed myself out of there before my mom, all I was thinking was that I just wanted to get out of there. And let me inform you, this is the second time I'm violated, I'm a 16 year old girl. And I was previously violated when I was in class 1 by my uncle, I did tell my parents... and they did confront him, but my mom also asked to show my parents how did my uncle touch me exactly... for this, I am just scared to tell my parents, i know its not my fault. But I just dont want to tell them. AND I hoped after the first one nothing like this would happen, but now it did, so my feeling about being raped when I get to college... is... I cant get it out of my mind... its like its my gut feeling... I'm just getting paranoid the more hours I spend awake and its midnight and i cant get sleep. I'm just scared and i dont know what to do. I didnt make a scene there because the temple was surrounded by old generation people who OFCOURSE WILL SAY ITS MY FAULT. I keep crying right now.. and my mind just blanks out when someone is doing that.. i cant think straight and all I want yo do is just escape when im in such a situation. Im am crying right now while typing this, and I still dont know what to do. Its unbelievable that a man STANDING in a temple of Ms kali (the goddess that fiercely protects everyone from everything especially women) and he was.. violating me... I'm just scared. I just dont like it. I cant even die because dead body rape exists too... I dont know what to fo.. i just dont wanna exist”
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First of all it's not you who should feel sad or scared .... It is he who did this to you... And why do you need to be scared of existence when there are shameless people like him existing without any fear... You are under the protection of Maa Kali and next time when you encounter something like this just break off the nose of who did this to you... I'm positive that people around you will come in support for you in these matters. Come on you need to be bold... There is nothing to be scared of ... Did you do anything wrong here? No right... So whatever happens, happens next.