“Something is seriously wrong with me . I’m always insecure . I fear that people see me as inferior . That they see me as insignificant and that they hate me . I can’t make proper connections with people and I feel like I’m always being ignored purposefully . They literally don’t answer my questions and ignore me . My older friends don’t call me don’t chat with me don’t even mention me in groups . All my friends my old ones and new ones , now I think it’s my problem , something is wrong with me or I’m doing something very wrong because for that many people to act the same around me . Nobody wants me as a permanent friend , they become very close and great friends in beginning and then after some time they just act like we were not good friends at all , and I can’t find true happiness , I’m always empty , always procrastinating , I can’t think of things go to talk about , it’s like I’m having an urge to perform for others to like me , if I don’t they might start ignoring me , this is tiring me out . Everyone I actually start valuing , just goes away right when I get properly attached and comfortable . It’s genuinely lonely as no one seems to put me first .”