“I have always been good at everything I do but somewhere along the way as I grew up I don't know but it feels like none of this is what I actually wanted to do. That I have not anything. And now that I have realised it I want to do or learn the things I actually love and also enjoy my life.... But at the same time, everyone around me is improving and I'm just stuck at the same level or rather downgrading... The pressure and expectations from my parents it's getting too much for me ... The way they have started behaving since I started to speak for myself, give my own opinions, decide for myself, they've been totally different, they just don't understand, They talk in consequences or threats and that pisses me off... Right now I'm the terrible, arrogant and self centred elder daughter of the House...
I just keep spiralling. I know what I need to do in order to achieve my dreams but still I won't. I just don't know why...
And what's wrong with me..”
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Someone answered with kindness...
I WOULD SAY LISTEN TO YOUR DREAMS, BECAUSE YOU HAVE GOT THIS ONE LIFE AND DOING SOMETHING FOR YOUR SELF COMES WITH MANY DIFFICULT SITUATIONS LIKE FIGHTING WITH PARENTS, BUT AT THE END YOU HAVE TO DO IT BECAUSE YOU CANNOT FORCE YOURSELF TO DO SOMETHING FOR LONG WHICH YOU ARENT HAPPY IN, JUST KEEP WORKING EVERYDAY I GUESS AND DONT STOP BECAUSE OF YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR PARENTS WILL EVENTUALLY START SEEING YOU ARE WORKING EVEN IF IT IS SOMETHING OF YOUR OWN CHOICE, THEY JUST WANT TO SEE YOU SUCCESSFULL , BUT YOU HAVE TO FIGHT NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT IS THIS, ITS JUST TAKES A LITTLE TIME AND CONVERSATION