“I have been experiencing this weight in my chest for the last 6 months. It’s general anxiety, which is mostly fueled by my own doubt regarding my abilities. I have been auditioning for a company for the past 6 months, and i always think it’s not perfect, even when people say i did well.
Every time i give an audition and think this is it now i can sit back and wait for the answer, they rule out a new chance to audition and i find myself making a new tape. Always striving to do better than last time. This has happened 4 times now. I’m exhausted, but I’m nothing in my soul if not persistent. I will be making another tape, either today or tomorrow.
I don’t know what i need to hear, but i want peace. This has been my dream, i know, somewhere in my heart that I’ll eventually pass the audition, but physically, the weight of anxiety is still there, sitting on my chest.”