I genuinely cannot stay at home. I'm in 11th grade and my mom and sister keep saying mean things continuously to me everyday. It's not large scale but over time it breaks you about how useless you are. Instead of causing a fight every time, I started to ignore them. Now they say how distant I've become from the family. It hurts so much that they'll never realise that they are the ones who are hurting me. But now holidays have started, at least being with people outside or my friends made things better. I genuinely feel like I'll end up having a very bad fight with them and a mental breakdown during holidays. It's hurts me to see other kids having healthy relationships with their parents and at least their siblings.
I've been clean for months now, I'm scared how do I drown their words and control my anger. Without breaking down my self and love for myself I built slowly.

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I genuinely cannot stay at home. I'm in 11th grade and my mom and sister keep saying mean things continuously to me everyday. It's not large scale but over time it breaks you about how useless you are. Instead of causing a fight every time, I started to ignore them. Now they say how distant I've become from the family. It hurts so much that they'll never realise that they are the ones who are hurting me. But now holidays have started, at least being with people outside or my friends made things better. I genuinely feel like I'll end up having a very bad fight with them and a mental breakdown during holidays. It's hurts me to see other kids having healthy relationships with their parents and at least their siblings. 
I've been clean for months now, I'm scared how do I drown their words and control my anger. Without breaking down my self and love for myself I built slowly.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

i like to write down compliments for myself when if feel like that. you should probably try to talk about how you feel with them though. i hope you can live independantly and stay clean<3