“I am someone who has never been good in studies, somehow managed to pass out of school, barely managed to pass out of college with my bachelors. I passed out last year june and haven't done anything after, joined an online diploma course, bit obviously not studying, my parents get mad at and I understand why, they want to me prepare for the common entrance exams and you must have guessed i have not studied, I don't have the motivation, i am so tired and sleepy and scared, I've never been good at studies so part of me already assumes I can't do anything and don't do anything to better myself, i genuinely feel like a disappointment and want to run away”
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Someone answered with kindness...
"Honestly, I think you've been so used to seeing yourself as someone who isn't good enough that you've stopped believing you can do better. But your past academic performance doesn't decide what you're capable of doing next. I know it's easier said than done, but maybe start small instead of putting so much pressure on yourself to figure everything out at once. You're struggling, not a disappointment."