“honestly batata hu starting se sab kuch or isko memory me store karlena ek baar me baar baar nahi bataunga iske baad... so mai college aaya tha 27th of july ko pehle din and mujhe honestly college okayish laga like not so good not so bad bas indifferent tha kyuki mindset alag tha then 30th july ko i met this girl named PUSPITA... bhai is ladki ko dekhte he ma kasam mene jo bhi socha tha ki focused rahunga kisise attach nhi hounga laude lag gye sare resolutions and and and i fell in love w/her... then us din our group of 4 boys approached their group of 4 girls jisme se ek vo bhi thi and we exchanged our phone numbers and me lena bhul gya tha uska no but but but that evening she texted me and we talked for a while and i genuinely felt good... like acha lga usse baat karke then dheere dheere humari baatein badhne lagi and mujhe usse or zyada pyaar hota gaya and hota he chala gaya... and subtly ye baat use bhi realise ho gyi thi and vo mere mu se nikalwana chahti thi ye sab...and then came the night of 27th of sep... i confessed my feelings to her although i never wanted to kyuki vo bde mixed se signals deti thi and once she told me abt this guy rishab jo uska sbse pehle online frnd and how they had been in a situationship almost for an year and kese cheezein kharab hui unke beech she waited for him but he ghosted her and dheere dheere she started hating but she never accepted that she loved him or smthg like that... so back to the confession i confessed her abt my feelings and she was like she went numb idk why and told me that she isn't ready for a rs and i hv to wait like pehle let's know each other well enough and then we'll figure it out... okayyyy understandable... but tujhe nhi lagta hai ki in order to get ready to get into rs you have to spend time with that person not only online but also offline and by time i mean js you two together and no one else but whenever i asked her out she declined like koi bhi excuses deke and showing herself busy...and and and even uske ek baar bolne pe i went to her area where she lives but she didn't come to meet me saying ki nahi aa sakti and all... and recently we had a talk where i said smthg ki tu bhale mat aa mere sath rs me but mere jitna pyar kisine nhi kra hoga tujhe after you parents and family... uspe she said NO there are these two guys named vineet and shripad.... they dooo... so i didn't say anything... i js regretted ki mene kyu bolaaaa.... and today while we were having a talk over dates and all so i said her ki dekh i never went on a date so genuinely i have no idea what to do... and tere sath i'll be completely blank jispe she said she knows and she had experienced it once i asked when did you go on a date... she said she didn't it was a meet up when she went to mumbai... and the so called meet up was with this guy called vineet the one who loves her more than me... and she told me her way of date idea like what she wants falana falana and i js said ki ese kese ho sakta hai... then she said ki ese nhi hoti hai date puri planning karni padti hai like how she went out with vineet and before telling me this she told me that this wasn't a date it was a meet up.... so i said nthg i js changed the topic saying ki merko kya in sb se merko nhi jana kisi ke sath date wate pe... and honestly merko samjh nhi aarha hai me kya karu ab... seee the thing is i'm completely obsessed with her now and at the same time like the way she was saying things like ki ess date nhi hoti proper planning karni padti hai don't you think agar vo chahe toh chal sakti hai mere sath but vo chahti he nahi and atp merko samajh nhi aarha hai mai kya karu bhai... i'm so fucked up...mujhe bilkul samjh nhi aara haiiii honestlyyyyyyyyy....🫠”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Bro hold on chill kr. First of all im not that mature or older enough ke mai gyan du but chota ya bada bhai whatever u want mann kr ek baat mann, live her alone. Cut ja uske life se like distance bana le, even though u loved her but something distance clear confusions. Or sry to say pr tera yaha cut rha hai/tha. Or ye sab start huaa 27th of sep se (which i thik u should've known).