Hi. I'm 19 F and I met a guy on reddit, he's in the same college as mine and he's 25 doing masters, so we talked a lot and initially we didn't vibe that much , I felt he had this narcissistic attitude. But he insisted on connecting on instagram and once we connected their we really started talking a lot and Vibing, our calls would last hours and everything felt great. We also went on a date too. It was the first ever date of my life , bike ride and movie and we got close too, like holding hands , hugging lil bit of cuddling too, the date went great. After a few days I started to feel a bit weird cuz of the age gap and the fact how we got so close in such a short time , I told him that I want some self time and he gave me too , but one thing that I wasn't comfortable with was him not expressing his about his past, which I wanted to know, u I did not want to deal with unhealed souls , and we were talking about that and fought and I eventually blocked him that night , the next morning I unblocked and told him it's fine let's get back to normal but he didn't reply , left all my 20 to 25 texts on seen and ignored my calls too , he ghosted me completely, I got really angry and spammed his number on a chatting website , thinking he'll get annoyed and contact me but he did not . I also made 2 new accts on reddit and tried to contact he ignored me again , now I feel I've lost all my self respect, I tried contacting him so many times and all he did was ignore, the reason that i really got attached to this man was probably Because it was my first I ever got that close to someone physically, we did not make out or kiss but still , and the most irritating fact is that he could have simply replied and said that he doesn't want this anymore , why tf he ignored . I feel so embarrassed cuz i literally chased him like a lunatic and I want him back, what do I do, Idk his college timings and even if I meet him physically I think he'll ignore too . I don't wanna let go cuz I spent so much of my time and efforts.

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Hi.  I'm 19 F and I met a guy on reddit, he's in the same college as mine and he's 25 doing masters, so we talked a lot and initially we didn't vibe that much , I felt he had this narcissistic attitude. But he insisted on connecting on instagram and once we connected their we really started talking a lot and Vibing, our calls would last hours and everything felt great. We also went on a date too. It was the first ever date of my life , bike ride and movie and we got close too, like holding hands , hugging lil bit of cuddling too, the date went great. After a few days I started to feel a bit weird cuz of the age gap and the fact how we got so close in such a short time , I told him that I want some self time and he gave me too , but one thing that I wasn't comfortable with was him not expressing his about his past,  which I wanted to know,  u I did not want to deal with unhealed souls , and we were talking about that and fought and I eventually blocked him that night , the next morning I unblocked and told him it's fine let's get back to normal but he didn't reply , left all my 20 to 25 texts on seen and ignored my calls too , he ghosted me completely,  I got really angry and spammed his number on a chatting website , thinking he'll get annoyed and contact me but he did not . I also made 2 new accts on reddit and tried to contact he ignored me again , now I feel I've lost all my self respect, I tried contacting him so many times and all he did was ignore,  the reason that i really got attached to this man was probably Because it was my first I ever got that close to someone physically,  we did not make out or kiss but still , and the most irritating fact is that he could have simply replied and said that he doesn't want this anymore , why tf he ignored . I feel so embarrassed cuz i literally chased him like a lunatic and I want him back,  what do I do, Idk his college timings and even if I meet him physically I think he'll ignore too .  I don't wanna let go cuz I spent so much of my time and efforts.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

U are still young and he is elder to you ,if he was into you he would have communicated u are literally a kid infront of him and I dont think he truly loves you because love does not put u in such desperate position.So listen I know its hard but just cut him off completely like you never knew him delete evry photos chats evrything u are in college invest our timein yourself now study make frnds go out post it be confident gurlll .Desperate attempts is just boosting his ego once u already felt off that mans its off dont date someone with ao much age gap until and unless you are sensible like atleast reach age of 25 other than that now if you wanna date date some one in your age bracket