“you know how people say "there are people who hv it worse than you" i believe that "worse" lot is me. one could argue that i hv a victim mindset, but one of my friend said the same thing to me. i am constantly losing people, i have mastered the art of letting go and i am strong but i dont want to be strong, i am tired.
for context i hv chronic illnes which is incurable and genetic and well you could say this is the root of all my problems. i hv lost so much to this and i thought i made peace with it but recently i could not be with the person i love because of this and all of it just resurfaced.
its like i cant do anything about it and i hate it, i dont like feeling helpless and i dont want to let go of this person. why cant for once i get what i want? istg dont say "it happens for a good reason" cause no there has never been a reward for my suffering and never will be. my sufferings are just sad and painful and i dont want to find meaning in it.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Okay this happens with me too. I also lost so many friend's and people does misunderstand me. But all we can do about that problem is letting things go, which is out of our control. It's really very painful I know and I suffer from it too. But we just can't change things that already happened. So, love and take care of yourself because at the end of the day you only have yourself.