Yoo..so I met this boy(let's call him S²) in class 4 and got attracted. Then in class 8 I again got attracted. Good thing is that I knew that it was just an attraction(good for me) Then in class nine we were in the same classroom and he was right before my bench sitting there and doing his business quietly and there I was sitting behind his bench and observing him in every possible way and realized it wasn't just attraction but there's something beyond..sooo I started observing more started knowing abt him more (none of my classmates knew that I had feelings for him) Then confirmed that it was nothing but purely and truly love and started loving him while him doing his duties nicely. Then in class 10 a boy(lets call him m²) from the past walked into my life again by joining in the same tuition as mine and proposed again and this time I didn't know what to do either....but yea ended up accepting m² while luving S² (ik it doesn't make sense) I even kissed him on the cheek and forehead and hugged him [Provided, without touching his body below his shoulders] and its been a month I'm in s freaking relationship with m². When I realised it isn't gonna be a right one..I started ghosting him cuz I didn't find a proper reason to breakup. Somehow this news spread very quickly in my school. My classmates started approaching me asking me to talk to m² but I didn't.m² used to come to my scl everyday and search for me. I even stopped gng to that tuition but I had board exams in 2 weeks so I joined in another tuition near my school and guess what he used to come to that new tuition tooo😭I was terrified to walk alone from my school to new tuition in the next street...then realised what true love is so continued to love s² in the same way I did before. I had moments with s² which felt like heaven I mean those eye contacts and random smiles were sooo damnn gud and my instincts strongly believed that s² loved me and on top of that in class 9 one of my classmate told me that s² had a crush on me.so I was sure that we'd get married not even getting into a relationship but direct marriage (that's my love for him) but then s² started acting all weird all of a sudden so I thought he must've got to know about that m² but I didn't have the courage to go to him and tell him my version (Provided, I never spoke to him in person..when I say never I mean NEVER IN THOSE 12 YEARS OF MY SCHOOLING iykyk) and recently one of my frnd told him everything pin-to-pin about my love for him and he was like I never loved her. I cried from 11.30 to 2.00 that night but I wasn't able to move on so I texted him and asked if we can be friends and he said no cuz he thinks it will affect me in future. I LOVE HIM SO DAMN MUCH THAT I DIDN'T SAY A WORD WHEN HE REJECTED ME and now he's not okay for us being Friends either. What do I do??? I even thought of telling my parents about s² in my first year of bachelors.

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Yoo..so I met this boy(let's call him S²) in class 4 and got attracted. Then in class 8 I again got attracted. Good thing is that I knew that it was just an attraction(good for me) Then in class nine we were in the same classroom and he was right before my bench sitting there and doing his business quietly and there I was sitting behind his bench and observing him in every possible way and realized it wasn't just attraction but there's something beyond..sooo I started observing more started knowing abt him more (none of my classmates knew that I had feelings for him) Then confirmed that it was nothing but purely and truly love and started loving him while him doing his duties nicely. Then in class 10 a boy(lets call him m²) from the past walked into my life again by joining in the same tuition as mine and proposed again and this time I didn't know what to do either....but yea ended up accepting m² while luving S² (ik it doesn't make sense) I even kissed him on the cheek and forehead and hugged him [Provided, without touching his body below his shoulders] and its been a month I'm in s freaking relationship with m². When I realised it isn't gonna be a right one..I started ghosting him cuz I didn't find a proper reason to breakup. Somehow this news spread very quickly in my school. My classmates started approaching me asking me to talk to m² but I didn't.m² used to come to my scl everyday and search for me. I even stopped gng to that tuition but I had board exams in 2 weeks so I joined in another tuition near my school and guess what he used to come to that new tuition tooo😭I was terrified to walk alone from my school to new tuition in the next street...then realised what true love is so continued to love s² in the same way I did before. I had moments with s² which felt like heaven I mean those eye contacts and random smiles were sooo damnn gud and my instincts strongly believed that s² loved me and on top of that in class 9 one of my classmate told me that s² had a crush on me.so I was sure that we'd get married not even getting into a relationship but direct marriage (that's my love for him) but then s² started acting all weird all of a sudden so I thought he must've got to know about that m² but I didn't have the courage to go to him and tell him my version (Provided, I never spoke to him in person..when I say never I mean NEVER IN THOSE 12 YEARS OF MY SCHOOLING iykyk) and recently one of my frnd told him everything pin-to-pin about my love for him and he was like I never loved her. I cried from 11.30 to 2.00 that night but I wasn't able to move on so I texted him and asked if we can be friends and he said no cuz he thinks it will affect me in future. I LOVE HIM SO DAMN MUCH THAT I DIDN'T SAY A WORD WHEN HE REJECTED ME and now he's not okay for us  being Friends either. What do I do??? I even thought of telling my parents about s² in my first year of bachelors.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

if he really had a crush on you (in grade 9), plus giving u genuine signals, then s rejecting u and telling u it will affect ur future (when it already is from what i read)  is the lamest thing he can tell you and you deserve more closure and you may be able to move on either way but remember if he still is fixated that he doesn't want to be friends with you just leave it, and dont stretch things further, it is really his LOSS because he will miss out on being friends with an amazing compassionate woman. i hope and pray that you will get surrounded by people who love you the way you love