“Why is it so difficult to have a normal, loving family? Why can I never feel genuinely loved by the people who are supposed to be closest to me? Why does having a mother not always mean having someone who understands you? Why does having a brother not mean having someone to lean on? Why do people only notice my anger and my reactions but never try to understand what makes me behave this way? Am I really that bad? Am I so difficult to love that nobody wants to understand me? Why do I have to feel lonely even when I have people around me? Why do I still cry when I tell myself they aren't worth my tears? Why do I miss my dad so much, especially when I need someone to turn to? Why does home sometimes feel like the loneliest place in the world? How do I detach myself from people I still wish would love me? How do I stop expecting affection and understanding? How do I become emotionally independent without turning myself into someone who feels nothing? And most importantly, how do I learn to love myself when I've spent so much time feeling unloved by everyone else?”
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Someone answered with kindness...
I truly understand you!!! Those feelings of belonging and wanting to be loved! I have went through the same! But let me give you an advice , you eventually start relying on yourself , start to love yourself as you grow! Cause only you understand what kinda live you want! You will priotrise peace than love at a point! And you are worthy of love! And at some point in life you will meet someone will love you as you love everyone! Just have faith!