“Why do I have to be kind?why do I have to forgive people who cut me the deepest? Why do I have to care for someone? what's the use of being with people? it's better being alone than being with people who don't understand me.my mind is messed up,idk why but every time i get angry my first thought is to kill them in a brutal way and toture them.When ever i think about toturing people i get a weird sense of happiness and sadness what should I do?”