Why do I feel shitty? Like in the past days many good things happening good new for my life. The next days should also be fun. I just came home from a vacation. I made art. I should feel good right? But I don’t. One tiny thing and I’m close to a breakdown. One slightly of tone and I feel like I’ve done something bad and am now forever a bad person. And I don’t know why. Like I always want to do things up I also really don’t and everything is too little and too much. And my appetite is bad,like I’ve never been a person with the best eating habits and I mean I have adhd that also doesn’t help I suppose. But like nothing really speaks to me anymore unless it’s there and the only option and something I overall like. And I can’t seem to get my sleep schedule right either. But most things around me are good. The only thing that isn’t seems to be me even though I tecnicly have no real reason,or at least none that I know of and I hate it so much. I just want to feel okay, no not okay,good. Or at least know what to do with me when I’m not. And yeah I do have a therapist but she’s on holidays so I’ll only see her in about three weeks again and I though not seeing her for 4 weeks would be ok,but maybe it isn’t. And I miss being alright. I miss feeling alive. And the thing is it’s not like I have good moments,I do…sometimes but that somehow makes it much worse. I wish I could just _poof_ and everything is good for me or something. Even though I know that is not how it works and honestly I don’t think it would feel right either….

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Why do I feel shitty? Like in the past days many good things happening good new for my life. The next days should also be fun. I just came home from a vacation. I made art. I should feel good right? But I don’t. One tiny thing and I’m close to a breakdown. One slightly of tone and I feel like I’ve done something bad and am now forever a bad person. And I don’t know why. Like I always want to do things  up I also really don’t and everything is too little and too much. And my appetite is bad,like I’ve never been a person with the best eating habits and I mean I have adhd that also doesn’t help I suppose. But like nothing really speaks to me anymore unless it’s there and the only option and something I overall like. And I can’t seem to get my sleep schedule right either. But most things around me are good. The only thing that isn’t seems to be me even though I tecnicly have no real reason,or at least none that I know of and I hate it so much. I just want to feel okay, no not okay,good. Or at least know what to do with me when I’m not. And yeah I do have a therapist but she’s on holidays so I’ll only see her in about three weeks again and I though not seeing her for 4 weeks would be ok,but maybe it isn’t. And I miss being alright. I miss feeling alive. And the thing is it’s not like I have good moments,I do…sometimes but that somehow makes it much worse. I wish I could just _poof_ and everything is good for me or something. Even though I know that is not how it works and honestly I don’t think it would feel right either….

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

I'm not going to say its ok or that your fine or tell you what your problem is, so I'm just going to tell you this if you get overwhelmed take a deep breath and let it out focus on something that isn't a problem at that moment, and when you are at those low points try to do something new but connected to what you normally do, you said you do art well if you draw maybe try painting or do other forms of similar but interesting art forms, I'm not saying it will fix it or change your life but it cant hurt to try.