Someone once asked...
Someone answered with kindness...
I, if I had a god complex.
Another soul answered...
God is God. Some theologian (cant remember the name :D) once said "Let God be God". What he meant by that: God is a being outside our human unterstanding and reality. We cant understand God fully. We cant empirically test or prove him. God wants you personally to seek and understand him. Jesus (the son of God) said: "That is eternal life - to seek God and seek me" (John 17,3) (Im translating myself from memory. Read that Verse.) A book to help you on this journey: "Knowing God" from J.I. Packer May God bless you and give you light in your search. Greetings from Germany