what should i do in life? i dont know if i have any interests and i dont believe in myself enough to think that i can clear any exam in 4 months when thousands of students have been preparing for those for like 2 years. when i try to study for class 12th boards at home, something comes in the way always. not like instagram or anything. i mean insta does distract me sometimes. but other things like my mom needing my help for her office work or household work and i have to help her because she's old and already manages both office and home. so i don't know what to do and how to manage anything? we are also extremely poor even though people don't seem to know this just because we have a good house. but we are buried in thousands of bills which need to be paid immediately and we are left with almost no money every month after buying groceries and necessary things. her salary is very less and we could not find any other job for her. we have also taken a loan twice and now no bank is giving us loans and we need to ay bills immediately so we have to take another loan from some online app with extremely high interest rate which will repeat this same cycle. there is also no money for my school fee and i don't think that my mother will be able to give me any money for any college forms that come. so what do i do??

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what should i do in life? i dont know if i have any interests and i dont believe in myself enough to think that i can clear any exam in 4 months when thousands of students have been preparing for those for like 2 years. when i  try to study for class 12th boards at home, something comes in the way always. not like instagram or anything. i  mean insta does distract me sometimes. but other things like my mom needing my help for her office work or household work and i have to help her because she's old and already manages both office and home. so i don't know what to do and how to manage anything? we are also extremely poor even though people don't seem to know this just because we have a good house.  but we are buried in thousands of bills which need to be paid immediately and we are left with almost no money every month after buying groceries and necessary things. her salary is very less and we could not find any other job for her. we have also taken a loan twice and now no bank is giving us loans and we need to ay bills immediately so we have to take another loan from some online app with extremely high interest rate which will repeat this same cycle.  there is also no money for my school fee and i don't think that my mother will be able to give me any money for any college forms that come. so what do i do??

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Breathe! You are so strong, you may not realise it, Wow, If i was really in your situation i wouldn't have come this far! I really need to tell you something, You don't have to be really hard on yourself. I get the situation you are in okay! And bout the loans you can approach any local community trusts or NGOs for loans rather than banks which cost higher interets rates. I recommed you to stay highly on the previous 20 year question papers and look up into schlorships. And If you really can you can do any part time jobs. Listen! It's gonna be okay and I believe in you!