“what makes life worth it? what do i need to do to make all this suffering be worthwhile?”

Another soul answered...

I think play and fun make life worth living. Also, pain and struggle are inevitable but suffering is a choice. If you are suffering from something right now, then know this: you are going to be okay. We go through hardship because it is a sign that a major change should happen. If you aren't ready for that change yet, then that's also okay. You have at least one person who will hold your hand through your darkest hours.

Another soul answered...

sometimes you gotta take a big fart and let your jizz land where it wants to

Another soul answered...

Look on the bright side. I myself have been hopeless at times. And, to make life worth it, help others. Make everyone remember you, bring goodness into the world, then you’ll have a purpose, then your life will matter