“Well there was this girl Sharone i met in 2024 online and at beginning we used to talk just normally and I remember it was her birthday on 25th February when i first saw jer and felt something i didn't feel before...and after a while I told her that I liked her and she said she liked me too and we eventually started dating....at beginning nothing seemed wrong it was going good...then came December 31st of 2024 when she caught me cheating even though I wasn't physically cheating but was acting lusty with another girl on my insta dm...well she got to know about it and we had an argument but I said I'll change and we were good....after that a few months passed by and something in me kept saying something is wrong maybe i should I ask for her insta password because she had mine as well....and guess what she was also cheating on me that whole time....but I didn't let her know that I was aware of her cheating on me...and she still used to talk to that guy...... knowing all that i felt really bad seeing her with him Infront of my eyes...still sent her flowers on her birthday in 25th February of 2025...cuz she had told me no one gave her flowers on her birthday....and fun thing is her friends were the one who told her to cheat on me and dump me and they were the one who introduced that guy to her....and then days went by i kept discovering more things such as sharone and her friends would always mock me and make fun of me and she actually joined them while I always had protected her name whenever someone tried to say something bad....time went by i started to build grudges in me and one day couldn't hold it in no more.....and on call i said some bad things which she felt bad about....and then in 2025 august i was on my vacation when she kinda started to feel different which i realized later after the breakup....then after that on a random day we were texting when she looked upset i tried to ask why just to comfort her but she behaved rudely which made me angry and I said i won't be the one texting first this time cuz she had behaved badly for no reason....then 3 days passed by....and she finally texted but her texts didn't feel like before...a few more days went by when she suddenly said she wanted to breakup...i asked why and she said i was Abusive and I said bad things to her and also I didn't care and said she eventually lost feelings....i begged her to stay for a bit longer....which she did... just for a week and after that she said she couldn't stay more...i called her in desperation cried and begged her to stay....but her voice and words were cold like I never mattered anymore....and then she left and blocked me from everywhere....since then it's been a whole year...it's almost 2027 and we broke up in October of 2025... we've not talked since breakup...and a few weeks back i noticed she deleted her account...well i did try to contact her a lot of times even through her friends but eventually got blocked by them too....And I can't recover from it no matter what...like it's just with me and never going away.....and idk what to do because I love her a lot...idk how this will end but I just want her back and a happy ending but I've always known even when we were dating that we'll never end up marrying each other still i fought just hoping maybe we will...”
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Someone answered with kindness...
It might sound bad but if you keep on thinking like this you will never move on. She was past and you are in present. There is no need to blame yourself or her for what happened. Things happen in life you learn, you choose and sometimes relationships fail for the better. She probably has moved on and you mentioned you said some bad things with her which she probably still thinks about but that doesn’t mean you were wrong about it cause she hurt you as well when you begged her to stay. Even if she had stayed she would never be the same cause when people in relationships start to hurt each other, it is bound to end. So I hope you can find peace and forgive yourself from the guilt you have been holding cause it’s life we learn from those guilts and we try to move on.
Hope you will get over it!!