Well it's might be very controversial and sensitive things to ask Here but as I don't have any other option, where I live and in which situation I am in surrounding with all of these religious extremist.Like from my family member to like everywhere .maybe cause I am attracting all negative energy but its also true my family member have become so extremist especially after this covid .They become so much religious and with that my peace started to drop day by day.A man like my father suddenly become like that I can't imagine.He was emotionally intelligent and was wise once but still somehow cause in covid all he used to do is watching his phone and that rewired his brain.I have this only one last chance to get out of this house by getting into university. But I am so sensitive and a little something happen and I become so like emotional. I try a lot I am failing everytime. It's like i am trying to but I can't explain fully here but evey time something bad happens or something bad I hear u know how sensitive people feel.i feel a lot and become sad for so much time and it take me so much time to be normal.i know I worte to much but that's how my situation is.and I have like so much less time and I can't get any confidence like I can't even touch my book.i am getting so much scared like what if I fail this time.cause I forget to tell I am a 2nd timer.its my 2nd time preparing for admission. And the truth is even in the first time I couldn't get to prepare well for my mental health and its only getting worse for me.now everytime I started to study I become so much scared and it feels like what if I can't get the university,even if I am studying will it give guarantee that I will get admission!and for somedays I have stopped studying again.time is going how it's always go.i can see my dark future. I don't want it to be like this but I only have 2 months and I still can't fix myself. This is my last chance ,if not I have to get stuck in this patriarchal system always .And getting out of this won't be easy. Or at least it's the easiest first step for me to get into university. I know after getting a university my life automatically won't be fixed but for that it's the easiest first step for me.and most important thing I have to get out of my home,I know my life will be solved 70%.and I also have lived outside in hostel.the thing is cause I failed at first time so I have to came back home last year and it was the worst time of my life.i am not getting that courage to start and give effort 2 months well.everytime I Start I give up after some days.and it's going on a loop like this

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Well it's might be very controversial and sensitive things to ask Here but as I don't have any other option, where I live and in which situation I am in surrounding with all of these religious extremist.Like from my family member to like everywhere .maybe cause I am attracting all negative energy but its also true my family member have become so extremist especially after this covid .They become so much religious and with that my peace started to drop day by day.A man like my father suddenly become like that I can't imagine.He was emotionally intelligent and was wise once but still somehow cause in covid all he used to do is watching his phone and that rewired his brain.I have this only one last chance to get out of this house by getting into university.  But I am so sensitive and a little something happen and I become so like emotional. I try a lot I am failing everytime. It's like i am trying to but I can't explain fully here but evey time something bad happens or something bad I hear u know how sensitive people feel.i feel a lot and become sad for so much time and it take me so much time to be normal.i know I worte to much but that's how my situation is.and I have like so much less time and I can't get any confidence like I can't even touch my book.i am getting so much scared like what if I fail this time.cause I forget to tell I am a 2nd timer.its my 2nd time preparing for admission. And the truth is even in the first time I couldn't get to prepare well for my mental health and its only getting worse for me.now everytime I started to study I become so much scared and it feels like what if I can't get the university,even if I am studying will it give guarantee that I will get admission!and for somedays I have stopped studying again.time is going how it's always go.i can see my dark future. I don't want it to be like this but I only have 2 months and I still can't fix myself. This is my last chance ,if not I have to get stuck in this patriarchal system always .And getting out of this won't be easy. Or at least it's the easiest first step for me to get into university. I know after getting a university my life automatically won't be fixed but for that it's the easiest first step for me.and most important thing I have to get out of my home,I know my life will be solved 70%.and I also have lived outside in hostel.the thing is cause I failed at first time so I have to came back home last year and it was the  worst time of my life.i am not getting that  courage to start and give effort 2 months well.everytime I Start I give up after some days.and it's going on a loop like this

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Thinking about failure only makes it hard 
The thought of getting out of the system itself is the first step which you have already achieved.
All you have to do is get admission.
As we know this is your only chance and 2 months is not very less time 
Goal is achievable if you don't procrastinate further.
I'm a btech third year student, once I was in the same situation as you 
So I can understand but living out there isn't actually hard.
I wish you all the best and the only advice I wanna give is don't focus on failure 
Hope and hardwork gives you best results.
Xoxo