Umm...i feel very uninterested in things.. my friends are getting tired of me ..i feel like burden to everyone im an only child I have been alone my whole life ... soo all I look forward too is with friends and that bond.. but lately they say I have become avoident and its affecting them so they say stop doing that but ita not that easy I keep explaining stuff to like I don't wanna come to college... i feel like crying all the time they would be like me too im feeling the same thing.. Just completely ignoring the fact that I actually feel it ... like idk at this point soo.. i get panic attack and I recently got diagnosed with hashimoto's so it been a roller-coaster.. idk wth am I doing at this point..... i wanna just disappear somewhere

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Umm...i feel very uninterested in things.. my friends are getting tired of me ..i feel like burden to everyone im an only child I have been alone my whole life ... soo all I  look forward too is with friends and that bond.. but lately they say I have become avoident and its affecting them so they say stop doing that but ita not that easy I keep explaining stuff to like I don't wanna come to college... i feel like crying all the time they would be like me too im feeling the same thing.. Just completely ignoring the fact that I actually feel it ... like idk at this point soo.. i get panic attack and I recently got diagnosed with hashimoto's so it been a roller-coaster.. idk wth am I doing at this point..... i wanna just disappear somewhere

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

hey, i read everything u said and honestly i wish u didn't have to go through all of this. i hope u know that ur not a burden, okay? and i don't think ur being difficult or avoiding everyone on purpose. sometimes things just get too overwhelming and u don't even know how to explain what ur feeling.

i might not fully understand what goes on in ur head, but i don't want u to feel like u constantly have to explain or justify why ur hurting. and ik sometimes when u try to open up, people respond with "i feel the same way too" but that doesn't mean what ur feeling is any less important. u deserve to be heard too, not just brushed off.

u don't always have to show up, be happy, make plans or be the usual version of urself. it's okay to have bad days, it's okay to not feel like going out or talking to anyone. u don't have to force urself to be okay just so people won't get tired of u.

and pls don't ever think u have to earn ur place in someone's life by always being available or being fun to be around. u deserve to be loved and cared for even on days when u have absolutely nothing to give.

i might not have all the right words to make things better, but i hope u know that u don't have to deal with everything alone. i'm here, okay? u can talk, rant, cry or even just sit in silence. u don't have to pretend with me.

we don't have to figure everything out rn. let's just take it one day at a time. and hey, pls don't keep all of this to urself. i care about u, and i really do want u to be okay.