“umm hii. actually i don't know how to even explain. I'm someone who is actually good at nothing. not good looking , not smart , not rich , no skills. nothing. i loved a girl once. she left me. ghosted me. and no it wasn't online love. we were together for 2 years. i tried everything to communicate but nothing resulted. from then i left the hope for love. it scares me. i promised to her it's her or none. I'm happy with it. but to the see my friends get love second time and maybe 3rd 4th kinda hurts me. without me their circle is complete too. they don't include me in their schedule , i don't even get their inside jokes being there from the beginning. i prioritize them but i am not their or anyone's least priority even. i have a female friend, she was saying that boy from her clg flirts with her an lot and she likes when he does it. she was a love hater like me too. no i don't have feelings for her but she also found love. i have one more friend who found love from a random app. i don't want any relationship rn but just wanna feel that i deserve the love too, i deserve to be someone's priority too, i matter too. i'm soo tired to fight alone saying this.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
I totally feel you. I understand the feeling of not being someone’s (or anyone’s) first priority. I thought about this a lot and came to the conclusion that in order to be loved by others I need to love myself first. How could I possibly be anyone’s first priority if I’m not even mine. And even if they don’t love me at least I do. Ik it’s a thing everyone says nowadays and it takes a lot to love yourself first. I still haven’t achieved it yet and if it won’t happen anytime soon. But I promise you this random person on the internet is telling yoh that you are love and you deserve it. It might seem difficult right now but you’ll get through this I promise it’ll get better. Love isn’t something you can force and it’s never about your significant other. Love is: loving yourself, your pet, that one coffee, mornings, music, play grounds, movies, cartoons just random things that make YOU happy. If your friends make you feel like shit walk away at the right time love like true love will find you! And one last thing your life is yours no matter what YOU ARE THE MAIN CHARACTER AND NEVER LET ANYONE CONVINCE YOU OTHERWISE! Lots of love from this random stranger 🫶🏼