“Today is 2nd November 2026
I thought ive always been the happiest child and only boys pulled me down mentally ruining my peace
Turns out life now has different things for me
I know god always shows me the way out
Hes always at the wheel
But with my dad falling sick, my pending loan
Quitting my toxic job because I couldn't endure it and now Oscar down with tick fever
And yes
I have a slip disc got it checked last week
I really do not have it in me anymore
I'm not able to take it
I feel like that loser that does not want to face life anymore
I cannot stand it in me to see Oscar like this
See my dad endure sickness
And me having to ask my family for money
My financial choices have got me here
And idk what to do anymore
If this is what rock bottom looks like then
Idk anymore
I cannot even go run
Frustrated at the peak
Earlier this year my wedding got called off and I found out that guy was cheating on me
Idk what to anymore
It's back to back to back
I'm know I'm supposed to count my blessings
People have jt much worse
But I'm not able to
Literally in physical and mental pain”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Hey....it's okay mam.....sometimes we need to count our problems too so that we can tackle them.....get a hold of yourself and it is hard ,it's unfair ,it is really exhausting to live life this way,but we cannot run and accept the fact that only we can do this .......make a list,set the priority,take care of loved ones comes first and side by side earning money too,i don't know what job were you doing but if it was taking a mental toll out of you it's okay ...you took a good decision to quit it .....but you have to earn some money...get a part time job , teaching is the thing that I do to do whatever I can, you can teach students or get a job that earns a little but there must be something
Until you find a gud thing
Talk to your parents...let them know how you feel,try to listen how they feel ,take care of oscar ...it will be okay
Baby steps
Take one step at a time
It will be okay 🫂