This year, i lost most of my people to trust and back stabbing. I lost so many friends who took most advantage of my kindness. I lost my bestfriend to betrayal. Im in a long distance relationship and my boyfriend is my only friend, partner, everything. But sometimes i think im too much expecting only from him. And he too has a life. I dont want to completely depend entirely on him just because im too lonely i cannot pour all my expectations on one person and expect what my mind needs.
My thoughts are too loud.
I have lost self confidence.
I want to love myself

Question

This year, i lost most of my people to trust and back stabbing. I lost so many friends who took most advantage of my kindness. I lost my bestfriend to betrayal. Im in a long distance relationship and my boyfriend is my only friend, partner, everything. But sometimes i think im too much expecting only from him. And he too has a life. I dont want to completely depend entirely on him just because im too lonely i cannot pour all my expectations on one person and expect what my mind needs. 
My thoughts are too loud. 
I have lost self confidence. 
I want to love myself

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

I can understand what you are going through since I went trhough something similar too and the only thing I want to say to you and the only thing that matters is trust yourself. It's always better to be lonely then surrounded by people who don't appreciate you. Maybe you are not a burden to your boyfriend. It always gets better. Focus on yourself, do things you love and enjoy. Find peace and eventually, it will all get better for sure