Someone once asked...

“This would actually sound something barely an issue or a problem. I’m 23 and questioning all my life choices, the decisions I have made, the choices I have done etc etc and what not? Really like someone, but did not have the audacity to say it just because I know the person I was dealing with was big fat liar and was also moving abroad. I wasn’t able to crack an interview which was something I actually needed, prayed all gods(out of my religion too) but seeing one of my friends take that place wasn’t on my bingo list. Have lost all the friends I had in all phases of my life and the only friends I have is the TV show with me to tell me that I’m not alone. I have been alone all my life as a single child but have never felt this lonely. The immense pressure of making it right every time is killing me from inside, but jokes on me I can’t show that to the outer world. I know things will fit in right places, my six will come when dice rolled blah blah and what not. But when??? Will it actually get better??? Will it actually make sense??? I don’t know! If god’s actually listening then why is he not giving a f***?? Bad karmas is it??? I have been kind, good to every asshole there was and I wouldn’t call this bad karma! If someone out there, seeing this, please please please don’t tell me everything will get okay alright or ai is there go ask the question… please don’t say these… Probably something which actually get back the hope I have lost is what I’m asking…”

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Someone answered with kindness...

I think you're putting way too much pressure on yourself to get everything right. You can't keep questioning every decision you've made and blaming yourself for everything that didn't work out. Sometimes things don't work out, and that's it and that doesn't mean you weren't good enough or that you're doing something wrong and also stop looking at everyone else's life, their work, their timelines, you dont need comparison rn, you are only making things harder for yourself also, I genuinely think you should consider counselling, you have got a lot going on in your head, and I feel talking to someone might actually help you get some perspective instead of constantly fighting your own thoughts, dont go for anything so costly there are some online apps and web available, just share ur thoughts to them, and fk it for once and all, i have been at this place, typing shit at such platforms would never help you

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Another soul answered...

You know even if you believe in religion god everything or not, in universe everything happens on its time. And we can't change this fact. No matter how much we try to pursue something we can't pursue it if it's not right time. But even if we are aware of this we are still humans who get anxious thinking about our future. And it's not a bad thing. But too much anxiety is bad of course. I am dealing with same thing I have being trying to pursue something for long time but there's zero progress. Some days I look at my self and wonder if I am going to make it. And honestly I don't have answer for it. But I know if I tried hard I will definitely find what I am trying to find. I believe in my self. So you also believe in yourself and for the people who left you they are not worth thinking about. And there's nothing wrong in being alone. You learn more when you spend time with yourself. Friends are just People. They can leave you at some point. They can betray you. They can forget about you. It's okay if you don't have friends now. 23 years is not some old age you have a long way to go. And I hope some day you look back and smile and say I was strong enough to make it. And moving forward in life you will encounter lot of people and in those people you will find people who deserve to be your friends. It's okay if you couldn't ace your interview there are still lot of opportunities. As long as we're breathing we have opportunities. If you did nothing bad no bad karma will touch you. And I believe in one GOD and I know his Plan is better than mine. You also believe in one and stick to it. Wish you a bestest luck.... I also don't have friends that's why it's okay. Love yourself befriend yourself.

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