“theres this person i really really love like so deeply i cant think of spending my life with anyone else,its been 2 years since things ended,it got really complicated,and he said he doesnt trust me idk so what happened was a lot of stuff was happening in my family it got really bad,and i was doing everything i could and i just broke down i told him he deserves better and he should leave me and stuff like that,i didnt want him to leave i was pushing him away so that i dont hurt him and yyeah he didnt understand that i guess ,he thought i didnt really care about him and that i was super selfish but i didnt want to hurt him and in the end i hurt him ahhhh i want to be over him sometimes but also ik ill never feel like this about anyone i tried to fix things but idk w e couldnt,ur relationship was perfect,it felt fated,so many good memories and in the end it got so painful he said some really mean things idk alll my friends think hes a jerk but only ik they i dodged a bullet but its him who dodged a bullet its my loss not his,and i have this problem where i blame myself for everything but noe i feel like i dont deserve love its not for me ,whatever was in my share in this life like the love is over now”
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Someone answered with kindness...
I get you, I'm really sorry that you have to go through this. However, I feel like I'm rather on your friends side. If he truly loved you, i believe he would've wished to stay more, to understand you more. Or atleast, let you explain yourself. Sure, you did push him away, but I'm assuming he knew about your family issues? If so, he should've known better. See, without knowing the complete story, I can't call him a "jerk" or anything. I'm happy if he treated you rightly throughout your relationship, but he seemed to be in a hurry to leave you, don't you think so? Especially calling you selfish after that? That got me.