“TBH I have many things in my life which i regret, and feel sad but I wanna only tell a few.. so since my childhood I never had any people who i can call as bestfriends ... But in general i have people who only needs me when they need something.... I always have to contribute something for a friendship but never the one who got something in return ... I have stopped expecting but sometimes I always have that empty feeling .... I also want to be loved and included right... So moving on... During my graduation I have met with a person online and she's having that every vibe which match with me and i thought I found my bestfriend finally... But eventually she started ghosting me and I am back to one again .... She always makes me feel cared but I don't know how to explain ... She never includes me ... It's like only one sided efforts.... I always think that communication is the key and when i confronted her about this, she says I acknowledge your pain and that she hurts me but people are never free and they have a life ... As if I don't have any... And if i stopped texting or calling then for weeks and even months she's okay with disappearance but she never texted me first or called me... But she's there for me sometimes listening to all my rantings and I am thankful for that .... But I've way past my limits and I am thinking of disappearing and breaking off this friendship now... I don't know what i should do now... I cannot stay and I cannot leave too”
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Hey stranger I get you. I have too been in such friendships where my efforts felt one-sided and I knew that but I was too attached or maybe I just felt that God finally I got my type of friends- the kind I always used to manifest. Exactly what you said I knew I can't stay but can't leave them too. Too afraid to lose them, too afraid to be alone. But guess whatt finally I did cut them off. And I cried..a lotttt. I cut them off when I realised that the kind of friends that I always wanted they might have those vibes but friends are not just for fun right they should be able to understand you, prioritize you and be there when you need it the most I can't be the only one sharing my feelings making efforts in every way possible just to see that the efforts from their end is different for me than their other friends.
I would say you should break off that friendship now and cut them off if you don't feel happy and satisfied in that friendship. Friendship shouldn't be that stressful right. You will miss them many times and will have the urge to text them but finally you will get over it. I did the same. I miss them too but well they are unbothered and happy without me too and I am happy too so that's fine. And if you feel alone find anything to distract yourself maybe a hobby . I helped me.
Take care stranger