“Sometimes I wonder about a woman I onced loved. Although I share sadness within my heart, it's simply not enough to burst out crying about its just gives me a sensation of jadedness. I convince myself I don't care much about them anymore but everytime I see them everything slows down and I'm reminded why I fell in love with her. Although I want to say she was the worst thing to hapoend to me and wish that I never met her, she's the person that made into the man I am today. Although I don't get sad much about it. I still wonder, is there still a Tim for us? or am I another fool in the crowd who fell for her. Nevertheless I'm proud I'm frustrated about her than over somebody that could be currently doing much worse. I guess the worst part of all of this is that I really wanted to live my life with her. Now that she's gone, the possibility is near impossible. The possibility of a future where me and her live the best life, there’s no doubt I will keep getting better in life and win in life. I just wish she was there to celebrate with me. Although I’m open to loving someone, I’m too cautious over who I lose my marbles about. I can love someone but to convince to do so isn’t very easy anymore”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Move on, but I know its not that simple. If you're carrying this much sadness about your past, you're not actually ready for a new person. Let's be practical, nobody loves a man who whines about his ex, she doesn't deserve you afterall. And please dont restrict yourself from falling in love again, if you're afraid that you will get hurt again, isn't that how life works? You dont know what the future holds, but what if it turns out the other way, what if you find your soulmate. Loving hurts, but someday, loving will feel like home to you. And I hope that day comes soon.