So… I'm in 12th rn, and I don't know what to do after this. I want to get into the fashion field, but it's a highly competitive field, involving huge risks. Idk if taking the risks will be worth it or not.

Admissions have already started in several colleges, and the majority of my friends figured out what they want to do in life and already applied to different colleges. While they are actually doing something, I'm stuck with several questions.

I wanna take a gap year to fix myself up...work on myself, go for NIFT coaching. 12th is really messing with my health, and I seriously have to work on my mental and physical health. So, if I'm not taking a gap year and directly try to apply for colleges, I'm afraid it'll mess me up more. And I don't think my parents are that fond of me taking a year off.

I took IP as my fifth subject, and I really do enjoy doing it(up until now, it's ok, but college level is gonna be different and I'm not really sure abt handling it)...Taking BCA is a safer option than B.Des.
I hate maths to the core. I wanna do smth with creativity, and sitting still in one place hasn't been for me. I'm pretty much like a toddler running wild with just my imagination and creativity, and for someone like me, finding a job isn't really easy.

I don't wanna stay in my comfort zone. I wanna explore. I wanna travel; I wanna do crazy stuff, go on adventures and events. I just wanna live my life freely (smth thats not gonna happen anytime soon). I don't wanna study in India. There's a lot of development that needs to be done with our education system, and I don't wanna risk my life staying here. I wanna go abroad and live the life like in those movies...where they are free.

Going abroad is really expensive, and considering the wars, a lot of places aren't safe either. I really have no idea what to do now, and I'm running out of time.

As much as I do love wealth and fame, I do need the basic money to survive in this economy
Il im fanatsing abt the perfect life and all, but right now, I need someone to be realistic and help me figure it out

Question

So… I'm in 12th rn, and I don't know what to do after this. I want to get into the fashion field, but it's a highly competitive field, involving huge risks. Idk if taking the risks will be worth it or not.

Admissions have already started in several colleges, and the majority of my friends figured out what they want to do in life and already applied to different colleges. While they are actually doing something, I'm stuck with several questions.

I wanna take a gap year to fix myself up...work on myself, go for NIFT coaching. 12th is really messing with my health, and I seriously have to work on my mental and physical health. So, if I'm not taking a gap year and directly try to apply for colleges, I'm afraid it'll mess me up more. And I don't think my parents are that fond of me taking a year off.

I took IP as my fifth subject, and I really do enjoy doing it(up until now, it's ok, but college level is gonna be different and I'm not really sure abt handling it)...Taking BCA is a safer option than B.Des. 
I hate maths to the core. I wanna do smth with creativity, and sitting still in one place hasn't been for me. I'm pretty much like a toddler running wild with just my imagination and creativity, and for someone like me, finding a job isn't really easy.

I don't wanna stay in my comfort zone. I wanna explore. I wanna travel; I wanna do crazy stuff, go on adventures and events. I just wanna live my life freely (smth thats not gonna happen anytime soon).  I don't wanna study in India. There's a lot of development that needs to be done with our education system, and I don't wanna risk my life staying here. I wanna go abroad and live the life like in those movies...where they are free.

Going abroad is really expensive, and considering the wars, a lot of places aren't safe either. I really have no idea what to do now, and I'm running out of time.

As much as I do love wealth and fame, I do need the basic money to survive in this economy
Il im fanatsing abt the perfect life and all, but right now, I need someone to be realistic and help me figure it out

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

First of all u rnt running out of time get this straight in ur head . If a gap year is what u need to figure out things then take it . But perhaps going to the university will probably help u figure out things. It will be a change in ur life so don't worry that it will mess u more