“so idk what to say but I feel like I've got really anxious recently like everything I do gives me several anxiety, someone from home gets ABIT sick, i get so anxious as if they are incurable, but maybe I do know the reason, there were alot if ppl in my family who just passed away w smallest reason, recently my uncle passed away because he had something wrong w his kidney, and during lockdown, my grandma passed away because he had breathing issues and lemme tell you she was the healthiest women i knew, she was in hospital for a month and she passed away, i love her sm, one of my neighbour passed away because he had mild stomachache, and there are alot more all this left so big scar that if there is anything wrong w anyone in my family i feel like dying even tho they are fine, recently my sibling got maleria, and fyi for the week when shew ss hospital i lost my appetite, despite having exams and 45 degree out there and having job I used to be w her, i just didn't wanted to leave her alone, heck yk whenever my parents are sleeping I see if they are breathing, i cannot leave w ts stress, i feel like dying, im so stressed and anxious sm ive lost my weight im 20 and my weight is 35kg which is so less, ive white hair, idk when to do, i want to have therapy but it's expensive and plus i don't have time for it, and fyi I'm eating whatever it takes to gain weight, but i don't see any difference, my literally ribcage is visible now idk what to do, someone help”
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Someone answered with kindness...
You just need to breathe and connect w nature ik it sounds too generic but trust me the answer is very simple ,the loss of losing someone does not mean you lose yourself in fact means tht have more room for something better down the line
Focus on your health as of now both emotional and physical