“So I am 21 year old Female and I have recently started doing an internship....I wanted a place to live during my internship so I booked a pg but somehow I ended up in a fraud...I told everything to one of my very good friend and he asked me to stay with him...in his flat he, his female friend and another guy used to live...they all were okay by that...when I started living it was all fine in the start....that female friend of his got close to me..even the another guy too...we used to talk for hours in the balcony in night...and slowly we started making out...I used to be a virgin back then but when I got to know he said do u want to do it...I was not able to say no to him....we had sex...but somehow I used to feel that it was all planned out as the first time we got physical he literally took me to a room and when I asked why he said I wanted to sit on the bed...which was kind of weird as why would someone do that when he knew balcony was our spot...we continued our thing....we used to make out....cuddle each other....have sex...and then he got a job and went to some other city...only three people were left in that flat including me...then the girl and my friend had to go to their homes for some reason and I was left alone so they asked the boy to come to flat and stay with me...I was excited and so was he....although we both had made sure that we don't want to be in a realtionship but it was before having sex...I always thought maybe if we stay together and were more related maybe things will change...then the time when we were supposed to be alone but a friend of him asked to stay in the flat and celebrate his friend...we were not able to say no to him...ofc everyone was drunk in the party and I was literally calling every guy by his name and I was trying to kiss that guy...I kissed him few times...also I kinda kissed the birthday boy saying my situationship's name on cheeks...this is what I was told by him in the morning...next day also we got drunk but nothing happened...although me and him cuddled and hugged...next day after the party was over the girl came from her home and she started asking things about what happened and everyone told her what happened and what I did...and she was so fucking bothered by everything...I didn't understood that as if you are not present you should not be bothered by the things that happened...all this happened...she literally said I need to talk to the guy (the one I was with as they were friends from 1 year ig)...also this girl and my friend because of whom I came are a thing...the boy never accepts but the girl accepts openly and also they cuddle while they sleep...so yeah...after 2 days I got severe stomache and was vomiting...I thought it was because of my periods but next day when i woke up i didn't feel good...everyone asked me to take a off...but it was my first month of my first ever job ...how could i take that...i asked my seniors and they said come and if anything happens we will be there...i went and didn't felt okay so i asked my boss and she said okay take half day...i came home and that guy had some stuff left when he moved to another city so he was packing his stuff and there was 2 other guys too..in the party the birthday boy was kind of hitting on me ....so yeah when this happened he was not there but other people were...i went to a gov hospital and they didn't take my case seriously and gave me a pain killer....when i came home i started vomiting again and i didn't felt good...i came from washroom and asked everyone that i need to see a better doctor....and everyone started saying that the girl needs to talk to my parents...ik how they are...my father doesnt give a fuck and my mother panicks a lot...only sensible one is my brother and i have told him everything i said...but they said she will talk to my brother ...i said no he is very busy also someone else talking make things very intense and he is a grown up he will handle things...out of nowhere they guy said 'Please go to another room...I don't want to see you in my space' and i went to another room and cried like a baby for 3-4 hours while everyone was busy packing his stuff...i had panic attacks ...i felt so bad as I knew there were things between us that no one knew and because of that thing that statement made a lot of impact on me...so i cried...i told my friend about this and he said i should grow up and i should know people have different ways of taking care ...i was so fucked...how was i wrong when i am the one who is physically fucked up and you guys are fucking me up mentally too... all i said was i need to see a different doctor...so yeah he hugged me before leaving and said bye...i talked to the girl in the night and i saw she was not interested in anything and i kinda revealed my and the guy relationship to him and said that's why this hurted me more also this thing was said to me in front of 4-5 people so yeah it meant a lot...it was disrespecting for me...next day that guy came again and we kinda didn't talk for 2-3 hour straight and then he said say what is going in ur brain i kinda tried explaining him but he was too stubborn he said there was no stranger everyone was ours and what if i said...i care about you...i was irritated ...i said in the heat of the moment and then he started kissing me and making out...i tried pushing him away but he was sure that he wanted to do that....2-3 days went fine...then a day the girl started this topic and infront of him(he was staying with us from 3-4 days as it was a long weekend) and started kinda taking my side...which she never took openly btw...so when this happened he got triggered and said speak in front of me...he tried getting my opinion which i gave to him..i tried making him understand my point of view as how i felt as things were harsh for me too...then we went to a market and he was kinda behaving weird....i asked the girl she said it is his father's bday and he is not with him so he is feeling a little low...when we came back i asked if he wanted me to cook something for him...or to make something sweet...or order anything that can make him feel better...he said stop taking everything to urself...everything is not about u...i was shocked...after eating our take aways i said do u want to sleep because i want to...he said yes...i tried kissing him 3 times he said no....i was like ok maybe i need to understand him better...i tried cuddling him he said don't do it...i don't know how to cuddle i am just putting all my body weight on him..i felt numb....i left the room by making an excuse and came into the room 2 minutes after...he said just sleep on the same pillow i won't be there after today i was like ok....then he started saying mean things to me and said I am the issue...and i then he tried closer to me which i said no that i understand u r not in the mood..and he said ok do whatever u want don't come to me this is my last day in this flat...i hugged him back and he started kissing me and making out...i said no...he put the blame on me and said ok don;t talk to me...i was kinda forced i didn;t wanted to do it but i had to...then i asked him to be on the top and he said he is tired and he will only do it if i am on the top...also he had said to me after just making out that you boyfriend will be happy as i give a good time...and said where have you learned all this...after we made out he said uk u should have felt something for my friend because of whom i came into this flat...i said no..he said good as i was not good for him...he said many mean things...my heart broke into a million pieces...i have attachment issues i thought maybe we could have been a thing...i genuinely developing feelings for him...next day in the morning i said bye to him and he didn;t responded and i went to my sister's place after office to stay...he and that girl talked about me for hour...she told me this not the details tho....i felt bad...i felt like i was used....then after few days my friend came to the flat...and while we were eating i was having a toothache and was not eating...he said uk u should buy ur own pilliow this is mine i bought it and this is the girls...i felt very bad as this kinda convo has never happened between us where we talked about this is mine and i bought it with money...i had fever that day and toothache...i went to the other room where there was no bad ...i put a mattress on the floor and slept there...after 30-45 mins the girl came and said sleep with us....i said no its fine i can't live with people who are so unbothered about me...he is my friend...if i am living with my friends i want to be treated that way...next day we didn;t talked I made poha for breakfast as it was potluck in my office and left some for them too..he texted me poha was nice i said thank u..i felt hurt genuinely as he was the sole reason why i was in this flat...he didn't even came up once...he was romancing with the girl in the balcony...when i was vomiting and had food poisiong they were the people who said i was not self sufficeint and was immature not capable to live in a flat...so next day my toothache was unbearable so decided to go to a dentist...i said and he said he will come and i said no..i genuinely felt hurt as he was so unbothered yesterday so today should also be the same...we had a convo for 10-15 mins that they want to go and i said no as i am enough...then we all went and i said i want to sleep in my room only as the yesterday was topic was still bothering me...he said ok ....then i came and asked about if i want to change the place will i get the rent back he said yes and was eating chocolate ...he knew i was bothered but he didn't said a word and they were talking with each other...even i started feeling bad and detached..all i wanted was one talk with him ...and things would have been fine which didn't happened...next day i came into the flat the girl went to her home again me and him was there he said he will go to his brothers place next day and i had a appointment with a doctor...what to do ...i said i'll manage and that's it..and this is just a small part of thing that is going on in my brain...what should i do...is it my fault...where do i lack”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Bro first of all the guy you made out with is an asshole I mean okay you're not revealing your relationship or not giving it a title but he should still treat you nicely the fuck is wrong with him I swear let that bastard go he doesn't deserve you and I know while sharing a place with friends some issues can arise and genuinely it's not your fault both of them the girl and your initial friend should be a little more considerate after all you were sick you know what some people are just not good that doesn't mean you're lacking anything don't doubt yourself sweetie love you but let that bastard go I hateeeeee himmm