Someone once asked...
Someone answered with kindness...
shush, it's okay.. try meditating, writing your thoughts down and just be kind to yourself, i do not really know what you're going through at this point but I do get it, life is tough.. but I know you can handle it no matter how rough it gets, just upgrade your skills by watching YouTube videos, try working in a cafe or whatever for experience and try talking to someone who'll get you and who's older, if you don't have that support aswell, id suggest you to just focus on your studies cuz that's the only way you're gonna get a good job and just settle in your life yk.. ( i hope you find my suggestion meaningful, I've myself been through alot in my life aswell, so i just know how hard things can be.. but do not give up yet.. many good things are to come and yeah, maybe try considering my advice like it's coming from a big sister of yours and honestly that's the longest I've ever typed here, lol. Anyways take care!!! )