“since 8th grade all the best friends ive had who i would have as my first priority , i would always be their second because they would have someone else who is way closer to them. I know they love me and care for me but they would never have me as their first priority someone who they would dump everyone for because theres always someone above me i always reach the second priority stage never the first and this is happening till 12th grade. in each grade i struggled w this. i find a friend we get super close she becoems my top priority while i become js below her top priority cuz of someone else. and i get jealous and start comepeting for attnetion even tho it wont change anything. i start faking struggles so they give me attention and sm more. i get jealous of eveery single thing they do , if theyre hanging out w the first priorirty friend or someone new no matter what i get jealous. and it affects me sm cuz i put sm energy into that. all i ever wanted was someone to priortize me like i do to them. but idk. its very draining and i js want to be okay w not being prioritized and i js wanna find someone who will make me their top 1.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
You putting efforts into a relationship that doesn't work shows that your kindness is powerful and you should not waste it on undeserving people go out there and find new friends
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Another soul answered...
Oh dear, I do understand you....maybe a bit weird idea but I started keeping myself at top no one talk to your self be your own best friend. One thing I did was kept a diary with me and treat it as my top priority best friend but yea dont be also in a corner if someone you really have good terms hangout with them too... dont assume thats hurtful truth but yea...
So be your own best friend be your own priority the top one it helps ...
Tried ans tested dear......
Sending you lots of love and kindness!!!!!
B....