“Recently I had not like a breakup thing but like he's a crack in my friendship with a girl I loved her but I don't feel she did idk even if she did it was always like thinking about herself first not giving much importance to me I felt and what happened is that I heard from someone that his brother's gf is cheating on him I told her about this thing I heard from a girl and she didn't like I told her it's just smth I heard there's no like evidence or proof on it but I told her cuz she had also seen this girl with other girl doing things and she decided to tell this to her brother her brother was psycho she didn't even thought about me once she told her brother my name and the other girl's name who told me this rumour avd her brother took my number from her and like kept calling me again and again threatening me about defamation case she was recording me and my friend on those calls I cried got so anxious for six days straight I've never answered any calls at home my parents are very strict id to hide this from them I got so scared and she on the day when her brother said that he'll come to cllg next day and meet confront me like I've to talk to a stranger that I've never seen in my life don't know his existence she texted me previous night I cried I couldn't talk so I never talked on call I just texted her she apologized but she blamed me that I left her alone she said she don't want our relationship to end cuz I blocked her she's still blocked tbh to this day it's been a week for that thing now and idk we've been friends since two years once she told her male friend that I made fun of his nose when I didn't it was her all the time he confronted me texting me at 11 in night i got dizzying anxiety that day too idk but now I feel like forgiving her just cuz I don't have any friends in cllg I've a good friend from god grace but she also have other friends I don't wanna bother them all too idk what to do but I feel bad also had my friend apologised me she said let's not fight in public sit in different seats otherwise people will make fun of her and all that and yeah how she just want me for chit chat and how people will say that she had a friend from two years which she lost I don't think I've any importance in her life I didn't confronted her I tried previous time I started crying like a kid and couldn't utter a word too weak for it two days ago she didn't came to classes like we are group of three people I was closest to her cuz we both were friends first but now as yk people expand she had made a friend from another department she was sitting with her spent her whole day with her while she didn't even thought about me that what will I do all alone in cllg that's when my other Good friends come up I sat with them offc but I don't like this unstablity in my life I want stability in my life so after she did this I didn't sat with her next day I feel whenever I reach cllg I call them asking where are they yesterday she never called me just came with her other friend maybe expecting be to wait for her maybe I don't like this I didn't sat with her I sat with my other friend but uk how it hurts alot watching all this tension happening in class I feel pain in my chest it feel like I'd breakup no it's worse then breakup idk I'm thinking of confronting her tmmrw I feel directionless if anyone can give me advise I'll be grateful for that please thankyou for reading this.”
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Honestly I feel like you've been holding onto this friendship more because you're scared of losing someone than because you're actually happy in it and I understand that being alone in college isn't easy but I'm doing it too and trust me it's not the end of the world 😭 Dw everything is gonna be fine, it's not like you can't live without that one person yk I hope I could meet you in person but I can't, and I genuinely understand your situation because I've also had a friendship that was really good for two years but at present we don't even talk anymore because she had to choose between me and her childhood friend and honestly I don't like being put in a position where I have to be chosen, I just want someone who considers me without making it a competition and I don't want to create unnecessary fuss either so I just let things be and now I mostly talk to people formally, like i don't take me that seriously anymore 😭I'll be good to people and maintain friendships, but I just won't depend on them too much emotionally anymore and I feel like college teaches us a lot about life including how to be on our own and not depend on one person for our happiness or stability and if we learn to be alone at this stage we'll realize that we don't necessarily need someone around us all the time to be okay, we just need to evolve and learn to be comfortable with ourselves and friendships will happen along the way, you'll meet so many people in the coming years so why stay stuck on someone who doesn't make you feel valued? What's the point of a friendship if you're constantly questioning your place in someone's life man But at the same time if you genuinely feel like talking to her and you feel confident that she'll understand your side then go ahead and talk to her, especially if your gut tells you that you need that conversation, just don't force yourself to fix everything alone or go back to how things were just because you're scared of being alone, you can forgive someone and still choose to keep your distance and I hope you understand what I'm trying to say ❤️