please tell me it gets better. this emptiness feels so heavy and sometimes it feels someone took all my organs and now only a hollow body frame remains. this silence is deafening, so loud that that it hurts my ears. it’s all contradictory i know, i just, how long till it goes on? i don’t need more life lessons, i need rest, i need a win too. i wish my friends never turned out toxic, i wish my past lovers never cheated on me. i wish i was worth staying for. it is a privilege to start over, to be stripped of all possessions but i don’t want to start over again and again. i just want to sit with my person and just sit so i can feel something except this emptiness and not this emotional autopilot.

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Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

the only positive of reaching your absolute worst is knowing it only gets better after this. "The heaviest storms bring the clearest skies". Atleast now, ur rid of those toxic people, those toxic lovers, things that don't fit you. You have a brand new slate to become whoever you want. Uv got this, start again one last time. Fuel all that hurt into hardworking. The goal is mainly to build an amazing life for yourself, but also TO SHOW THEM WHAT THEY"VE LOST. It's going to be soooo fcking hard. yes. cry it out, take your time to grieve but know that the universe has only sent these challenges ur way because it knows u can survive it and that u will become SO UNBREAKABLY strong from this. And once you do, theres going to be a paradise of a lifestyle, amazing people awaiting you. This was needed to snap you into the right path. Talk to someone if you can. Get therapy. Sit down write how many ever pages you want just write everything thats on your mind into paper and yes its gonna hurt but it'll be worth it. Then write about who you can become. what u can do to become. I'm not telling u to do this immediately, take r time. Go out on solo walks, to the movies and watch movies and listen to music that will rekindle your spirit. Pick up your hobbies again and do what you love. Smile at strangers. Slowly, you'll find yourself getting your spark back. UV GOT THIS. This is a journey, an ur srong enough to get through this. I know this because ur already accepting and seeking help, which shows how amazingly bravee you are.