“Okay so three days ago my two closest guy friends found out that I've been texting one of their exes. Thing is they dated for only 2 weeks. And all my closest friends are guys so none of them can actually rizz me up or say "OMG mary me you're so pretty" and I was really missing all that. So when they found out, the first one (let's call him T) started calling me non stop and I was just gaslighting him because he somehow logged into my third account. About an hour later, i confessed. Then my other friend (the guy whose ex I was texting, let's call him A) texts me saying he's just disappointed and not pissed. He kind of listens to me but he's not getting the fact that i just missed someone telling me I'm pretty. He kept asking why I don't ask anyone in my boarding house but I'm not always on good terms with any of them. And they don't call me pretty either way. A blocked me that night. T still texts me but it's very dry and he doesn't ask me anything, or text me first. Which makes me realise that if I don't text him first, I'm gonna lose him as well. My sister is on call with A for the last few nights. She's seen how depressed I'm getting, even though I act like everything's okay and put stories of how I'm living the best life. I called him last night. And apologised for a straight minute. He didn't hear anything and hung up. I've been going on voicemail ever since. I want to keep calling him, but I don't want to be desperate. Thing is, my sister used to text his ex too. But because she begged, he unblocked her and told her to block his ex. I really miss A a lot. Like everything I do reminds me of him. I have so many songs I listen to that remind me of him. Genuinely anything i do reminds me of him. I want him back in my life because I was so close to him. I'm also healing from self harm, getting therapy, but I just have a thought that if he doesn't come back, I might cut again.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
The thing how serious was that 2 week relationship? If it ended on veryyyy bad terms then I can kinda understand A feeling like that but that still doesn't take away your choice to choose T. And Abt A not talking to you, I think you should give em a bit more timez you should also communicate why you texted T with clarity. Not needing validation Abt your beauty is always better than feeling validated by people calling you pretty, you are pretty. I feel that