“Okay so i don't know how to put it in words but I'll try.
I've been very sad or unhappy from 3,4 weeks now like nothing really excites me or make me happy! And I don't want to be like this, somedays i don't feel like doing anything at all. It's like I'm just existing with no interest. And ig I do have an idea why I'm feeling this so I'm in my college and the professor told everyone to give presentation and as an quiet, shy , under confident person the word presentation gave me an anxiety. I tried convincing myself to do it regardless of what the past experience I've faced and I did my preparation too so it's like one part of my mind is telling me to just go for it and there's other part who is telling me not to do it and run away it's okay doesn't matter, you'll mess up like in the past. So there was this constant fight that was going on in my mind and guess what sadly, I decided to run away from that situation for some time I did feel like ok now I'm safe but after that it really made me sad and i continuously blamed and shame myself why didn't I just give the presentation like why and what am I so afraid of. I mean ik that everybody makes mistakes and they learn from it. And that nobody is really thinking about me, nobody really cares just like me they're thinking about them but I still can't let go of that feeling , it's just my mind making things up that everybody is judging you, don't mess up. I know even if they are i shouldn't be bothered but still I could not make myself be completely unbothered. I think this is one of the reason I started feeling depressed about everything. And I still am i just don't know what to do at this point.”
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Someone answered with kindness...Thanked by the asker
Better learn to love yourself despite of who you are and ehat you think and most importantly don’t give a damn about what people think just be yourself man it’ll take time but just try to come out from your comfort zone (comjng from a person who felt the same)