“My household is so toxic I cannot live another single day in this house but still have to wait till exams and college applications to open and hope I get a good college outside my state wherever it is I will go I just wanna go far away from my family not a single happy childhood moment of my life has been due to them I genuinely despise them and they still put on the act of oh we did so much for you blah blah like ok thats the bare minimum you gave me I would love any advice or suggestions on what I can do or how to get through these few months without losing my mind”

Another soul answered...

I genuinely hope you get into a good college far away and get the chance to experience the independence and peace you've been craving. Until then, try not to let your home environment consume all your energy. Focus on your exams, make little plans for your future, spend time with people who make you feel safe, and find small reasons to look forward to each day. You don't have to force yourself to forgive your family or pretend everything is okay. Just remember that this phase of your life isn't going to last forever. You're allowed to build a life where you feel happy, safe and loved, even if you didn't get to experience that growing up❤️

Another soul answered...

Hey..been there..nevr had a pleasant childhood ,no good memories..but wht kept me hanging in there was tht some day ill get out of tht place n find peace..stay calm, keep a journal and write ur feelings in it..start being grateful and thankful for what you have n wht might be someone’s dream to have that u got in your life and see universe gives you love and peace maybe not quickly but eventually..n i hope u get into a good college and study well if u can manage try to study abroad and settle there..if ur finances r sorted…strt ur research in second or third yr of clg to quickly apply for visas..