“my dad has an affair and ever since our family has never been the same, stopped going on vacations not even restaurants to dine but the thing that messed me up physically and mentally was knowing that he had a son with her whom he c-sectioned on the day I was born on 16 October, my mom cried till her eyes were red and asked him a million times why he did this to me; we never had a good relationship he never was a father to me but yes he did try this best to complete all the responsibilities he had towards me but he loves my younger sister to death tells her she is beautiful and still kisses her goodnight, I always waited to see when it would stop for her maybe 4th grade too? but it never stopped and I thank god everyday that she is loved and cared for, she is in 10th grade and he kisses her goodnight tells her she is the most beautiful thing he's ever seen. He always wanted a son so he replaced me with one on the day he became a father. I don't know what to feel but it's being hella suffocating to live with it everyday in fact writing this has my chest cold with disgust that I could never be perfect for him and I will never be and I'm gonna die with it. HOW DO I GIVE UP ON HIM AND THE CONSTANT NEED TO BE NOTICED BY HIM I STILL LOVE HIM HOW DO I TURN A BIT SELFISH FOR MY OWN SANITY?”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Hey kid.. i can understand what goes through u. I want you to tell you this.. we are human beings and human beings make mistakes. I am not telling that your father is right.. he is absolutely wrong. The thing is people living their life for the first time .. they dont know what to do if something happens or how to react or how to accept or how to even reject. And this is life. We are not mistakes but the times are . Who knows your father is regretting his actions .. crying inside making such things.. the thing you should do is live the life.. time happen, things actually heal. Now all you need to do is be the support system to ur mum and ur sis, they should have that courage that you exist. They should not get crushed under lack of honesty in the house. All i say is be patient , forgive your father but not his actions pr decisions.. humans and their mistakes are different things..we make a mistake of taking both together and lose the only relations we might feel in this only life... dont force try to fix things.. just be patient and forgive everything u can so that u could let him regret. Telling u again be honest to ur mother.. she may stop beleiving people . So if u say even a lil lie she might feel as a betray. And stay her side whatever happens in life.. happy healing..my friend