“Maybe I'm just sharing thoughts. My life..in a normal sense would be pretty normal or boring too you could say. I don't really have much eventful stuff happening to me. Like..I've always tried to do the right thing. Did what parents told me. It's not like I was genius or hard worker either. Always were an average student. But did what my parents told me. Not like I ever thought I didn't want to listen. I avoided people that caused troubles. Made a close group of friends. Have one bestfriend since like childhood. It has been normal. No heartbreak..no crush either. Never involved myself with relationships..as assumed it'd just hamper studies and since parents seemed to not like those. I was helpful and kind when needed. Got into university too. But I am still same as I always had been. Doing what needed to be done. Not the greatest at everything but try to fullfil my responsibilities. Still no love. I sometimes wonder if I'd be able to honestly. Because now just considering arranged marriage.. and later see that as a responsibility too. Just partnership with no love involved unless I end up developing I suppose. It's not like I had a sad life either. At least I won't say I did. I personally didn't face anything heartbreaking. I had people around me that did though. They often came to me to vent. I always listened. Always guided them... comforted them. I've always felt like being an unpaid therapist to people. I've heard a lot from different people. But since I've hardly made mistakes myself in this life...as I've always tried doing the right thing.. I didn't really have that kind of learning experience phrases. I always had to learn from people's story. It feels weird sometimes. I'm not fully in shadows of everyone. Nor I'm in center of attention. You could say I'm just in the middle. Just an average girl... average look.. average results...idk. Thanks if you listened. I've no clue why I'm sharing either. Not like I wanted advice. I'm already aware of what my future goals are and what I should be doing. Lol like I said..I always tend to do things right. So that I don't end up regretting in the future. That's why end up making many plans and backups too. So yeah. Anyways bye.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
I think you did the right thing by sharing your thoughts with a total stranger because I can give you an impartial ear to tell me. I think even among average people, or people who think they are average, there is one defining feature for all of us, which separates us from each other. I think you will find yours as well.
I hope that you are optimistic, and I hope that your future is prosperous, successful, and happy. I think I do understand what you're feeling because you might feel like you're walking on a path set by someone else, defined with strict guidelines and rules. I think you could consider yourself a bit luckier than some others in this department because some don't even get this type of guidance in life, even specifically when they require it the most. I think we are lucked out. We have lucked out in this category.
In the end, I would just like to say: be proud of what you are at the moment. Learn from what you think you could have done or shouldn't have done in your past to become the better version and the best version of your future.