“lol so I had a bf like two years back, we broke up cuz he wanted to be w his female bsf they dated for sometime and then they broke up meanwhile I was also dating someone and I also broke up cuz my bf used to hink i still loved my ex aka my first bf. so after all this we again got together we weren't in a rs but we're friends he used to try to get back together and I was waiting for the right time but guess what one day suddenly he dropped another banger saying that now he misses his first ex and wants to go back to her and ofc i said alot of things but didn't stop him. then we reconnected after some months and we were happy for like one year being friends it's was like we won't talk to anyone person but then someone came in my life and now I'm stuck between two boys, and I genuinely don't know what to do.
The first boy was my first love. We've known each other for years and have had a very complicated, on-and-off connection. We've broken up, stopped talking, blocked each other, said goodbyes and somehow always found our way back to each other. There were situations involving his ex, misunderstandings and times when I felt like I wasn't his first choice. Despite everything, I always had strong feelings for him and wanted things to work out. However, lately, something has changed. I don't feel that same romantic connection with him anymore. I still care about him, enjoy talking to him and honestly wouldn't mind being best friends, but I'm not sure I want a relationship with him now.
The second boy came into my life when things with the first were complicated. He's given me the kind of love most people wish for. He's caring, expressive, reassuring and genuinely makes an effort to keep me in his life. He loves me deeply, but I've tried ending things with him several times because I'm unsure whether I can reciprocate his feelings. Somehow, we always start talking again. I genuinely care about him, love our bond and know I'd miss him if he disappeared from my life. But I still don't know whether I want him romantically or simply don't want to lose someone who loves me so deeply.
My biggest problem is that I keep going back and forth. I don't want to hurt either of them, but I also can't give either of them my whole heart or make promises about the future when I don't know what I want. I sometimes feel guilty because I want both of them in my life, even though I understand that they have feelings too.
Am I developing feelings for the second boy, or am I just attached to the way he loves me? Have my feelings for my first love genuinely changed, or am I just emotionally exhausted from everything we've been through? Should I take a step back from both and figure myself out? I really need honest, unbiased advice.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Take a step back from both.
Continuing this back-and-forth isn't fair to them, but more importantly, it keeps you from getting clarity. As long as you have both of them filling different emotional voids (one providing familiarity/history, the other providing security/validation), you won't be able to figure out what you actually want independently.
one more thing be honest with both of them !!
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Wandering voices — answers no one has read yet
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Another soul answered...
Ok so . Firstly I was there in those shoes as that second boy alright. I won’t be biased about this so I’m gonna tell u in every pov
I think love is smth not only a single thing it includes a lot to be called love right .
It’s also very simple when u see it . If u truly love someone u won’t let go of them u won’t let lose of em . The on and off and getting back together isn’t really what is called love it maybe some infatuation. I don’t wanna judge but u might seem quite young . Ok despite ur age u need to think with maturity and decide what’s good for u - someone who’s a on and off not emotionally intelligent who acts upon mood or someone who’s there for u loving caring and who won’t let go .
And obviously as the second boy even if u let him go there’s NOTHING YOUR FAULT alright
That second guy knew what he signed up for still he wanted to love u and showed u his emotions alright
He himself got into this so even if u reject him don’t feel sad alright he Will understand trust me
And again the first boy I can’t even tell you lie man the first dude is lowk not fit for you in my opinion
Cause place all the cards on the table
What u wanna do in future where u wanna be and with whom u wanna achieve all this think about it
This prolly might be emotionally attached to u but if u think abt it this might also be an imp decision of choosing ur partner type shi so I wish u all the best whatever it maybe whomever u choose i pray it works out for you. Bless <3