Lately, I'm feeling very very much frustrated because of my job. No, I'm not in corporate or in a govt. job, I'm in a f*cking pathetic LALA company. And these shallow mfers treat their employees like punching bags. (Pardon my language!)
These vultures do not miss a single chance to do blame game with their employees. Infact, they actively look for it all the time.

And yes, not to mention, no f!kin perks, no reimbursements, no PFs, no bonus, zero, zip, nada, nothing. I joined back at the starting of previous year because it seemed a chill place. No set of rules or regulations or anything like that. They didn't use to deduct any salaries for the leaves we used to take in a month. (That was the sole benefit here!) And a few months back, they took that away too.
They deduct the pay for each n every single day now. Not to mention the backb-tchers or bootlickers working there making things hard for everyone. This place has no rules, no regulations, nothing. And the a-hole owners never accepts their mistake at all, instead look for reasons to blame each n everytime.

I'm on the verge of crashing out and want to leave ASAP but I have literally no backup, no financial stability. I'm stuck here not knowing what to do and it's starting to affect my mental health a lot. Each n every hour, I feel irritated or frustrated..
Should I leave this without any backups? Or should I keep doing this because I have no other source of income as a backup?

I'm very very much puzzled, idk what to do with my life. I don't see any goals for me, I have no friends to talk to, no one to ask for guidance. I'm basically all alone and this is killing me from within. All these things are messing up my mind. I'm not getting good thoughts either. Like I was thinking about ways to OD'ing myself (wasn't gonna actually do it) but the fact that my mind was even going there makes me feel like I'm depressed and I don't know a way out.

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Lately, I'm feeling very very much frustrated because of my job. No, I'm not in corporate or in a govt. job, I'm in a f*cking pathetic LALA company. And these shallow mfers treat their employees like punching bags. (Pardon my language!)      
These vultures do not miss a single chance to do blame game with their employees. Infact, they actively look for it all the time.

And yes, not to mention, no f!kin perks, no reimbursements, no PFs, no bonus, zero, zip, nada, nothing. I joined back at the starting of previous year because it seemed a chill place. No set of rules or regulations or anything like that. They didn't use to deduct any salaries for the leaves we used to take in a month. (That was the sole benefit here!) And a few months back, they took that away too.        
They deduct the pay for each n every single day now. Not to mention the backb-tchers or bootlickers working there making things hard for everyone. This place has no rules, no regulations, nothing. And the a-hole owners never accepts their mistake at all, instead look for reasons to blame each n everytime.

I'm on the verge of crashing out and want to leave ASAP but I have literally no backup, no financial stability. I'm stuck here not knowing what to do and it's starting to affect my mental health a lot. Each n every hour, I feel irritated or frustrated..
Should I leave this without any backups? Or should I keep doing this because I have no other source of income as a backup?

I'm very very much puzzled, idk what to do with my life. I don't see any goals for me, I have no friends to talk to, no one to ask for guidance. I'm basically all alone and this is killing me from within. All these things are messing up my mind. I'm not getting good thoughts either. Like I was thinking about ways to OD'ing myself (wasn't gonna actually do it) but the fact that my mind was even going there makes me feel like I'm depressed and I don't know a way out.

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

Don't know if this is the right thing to say but is you can't do it anymore just leave them and instantly search for a job because when u feel desperate of not having money or food eventually Ur brain starts speeding up the process of serving. If u have the possibility tho search a job rn enter and leave this then figure it out