“I've lost myself, I wasn't this version, I failed an exam last month, I've gone back to sins I repented from. I am no longer closer to my Lord. I was always an excellent student. and it's okay if I failed, I can study again, I know. but This version, this self destructive version of myself. I want to scream, scream so bad, this hurts, everything hurts; death of my loved ones hurts, not being closer to religion hurts, I was so much more, why am I suddenly so less, Ive turned into nothing, and why is no body asking me if I am okay? I don't know. I want to crawl out of my skin, I don't want to live inside of myself, I don't want myself, I don't want to deal with myself , I need a break from myself.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Okay you clearly are frustrated with everything right now . You maybe need to do what you love , like any hobby you have . Best way to reconnect with ur self is to back in nature . That really will make u closer to ur lord again . Don't worry this happens with everyone its just a phase . And u rnt suddenly less because of all this . So don't lose hope in yourself