I've been really depressed for years since I changed my schools since I got in depth of my family problems etc etc I'm currently in 11th and as far as I can remember I've been in this cycle of depression since my 8th grade . Yk I always think that I can get out of this depression but I always get back to this cycle it's like it never gets better I mean whenever I think it's gone it's just an excuse it comes back again .. idk if it's really serious or it's just me making a big deal out of it but when I'm really depressed I sleep for whole days I can't get of my bed hell I can't even brush my teeth or take a shower or study or do anything that is productive . When I started sleeping for whole days my mom labeled me as lazy etc my parents don't see it that I'm really fckin depressed man my father is emotionally absent also my mom is .. my father is also away he only comes on weekends and my mom she's emotionally unstable too so I don't really have a good relationship with any of them the thing is that I don't even have anyone to talk to this about I don't have any friends etc it's like I'm trying to keep up with everything my academic pressure is so much my family problems are so much that my parents might get a divorce in future cuz there's no other way and I have to get successful atleast independent when that happens cuz I don't wanna live with any of them I never got to live my teenage life my parents are damn strict especially my mom she never lets me go out if she does she says that she's gonna come along me .. maybe it's cuz they don't trust me yeah they don't . For once in my life I wanna live as I want my teenage years are passing by and I don't even have friends I have severe social anxiety I hate public places I hate my college cuz everyone there has friends except me I'm the only one who sits alone and chairs beside me are always empty even if someone sits there they drag their chair away and put a bag or smth in between us so college is so humiliating for me i an just so much tired of these problems I don't even wanna live like this I really want to change but I can't cuz my parents are strict I'm planning to move out for med school after my 12th I wanna apply for abroad uni I don't know if I can do that but that's the only way I can get out of this hellhole I'm just so much pressurized and I'm tired really tired ..

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I've been really depressed for years since I changed my schools since I got in depth of my family problems etc etc I'm currently in 11th and as far as I can remember I've been in this cycle of depression since my 8th grade . Yk I always think that I can get out of this depression but I always get back to this cycle it's like it never gets better I mean whenever I think it's gone it's just an excuse it comes back again .. idk if it's really serious or it's just me making a big deal out of it but when I'm really depressed I sleep for whole days I can't get of my bed hell I can't even brush my teeth or take a shower or study or do anything that is productive . When I started sleeping for whole days my mom labeled me as lazy etc my parents don't see it that I'm really fckin depressed man my father is emotionally absent also my mom is .. my father is also away he only comes on weekends and my mom she's emotionally unstable too so I don't really have a good relationship with any of them the thing is that I don't even have anyone to talk to this about I don't have any friends etc it's like I'm trying to keep up with everything my academic pressure is so much my family problems are so much that my parents might get a divorce in future cuz there's no other way and I have to get successful atleast independent when that happens cuz I don't wanna live with any of them I never got to live my teenage life my parents are damn strict especially my mom she never lets me go out if she does she says that she's gonna come along me .. maybe it's cuz they don't trust me yeah they don't . For once in my life I wanna live as I want my teenage years are passing by and I don't even have friends  I have severe social anxiety I hate public places I hate my college cuz everyone there has friends except me I'm the only one who sits alone and chairs beside me are always empty even if someone sits there they drag their chair away and put a bag or smth in between us so college is so humiliating for me i an just so much tired of these problems I don't even wanna live like this I really want to change but I can't cuz my parents are strict I'm planning to move out for med school after my 12th I wanna apply for abroad uni I don't know if I can do that but that's the only way I can get out of this hellhole I'm just so much pressurized and I'm tired really tired ..

Anonymous Practitioner · Accepted Answer

ah wish i knew the answer to this, i have been struggling with something similar too, but ik for sure, that whoever you are my dear friend, you will do amazing in life, just hang in there, study hard, get into the uni you want, stay strong buddy!! it will be alright, i believe in you.

- a friend of yours :))