“It is unbearable to have a stepdad and his words real hurt my heart I wish to live somewhere far away but can’t due to financial reasons and I cant ignore him as well what should do to not feel hurted all the time”

Another soul answered...

Sometimes talking to someone who's not related to the stepdad can help. But if you don't have that liberty, write down your hurt in words. Articulate your emotions onto paper or voice record and just save it somewhere. Don't go back and reread or listen to the recording. Just keep the emotions in them as it is. Cry if you want to while recording, scream or even break a few pencils/pens while writing. Let out those feelings. Otherwise storing them inside you...you're only harming your own body in long run.