“is it a must to be/look actively "happy" when you're going through absolute bs and trying to get your shit tg? can't i just do it sad until i eventually feel okay again? idt me being amidst the process of getting better, entails i should already feel okay/happy/normal, should it? weirdly this is pressurizing me more and i loathe it. bc of this i pretend like i'm happy to everyone else and it's somehow everything worse.”
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Someone answered with kindness...
Why you need to pretend? Like if they are close enough they would know something is wrong with you and if they aren't then there's no need to pretend anything for anyone