“I’m worried that if I do what I want in life, I won’t be living it to the fullest. But really, I don’t even know if it is what I want, maybe I just need quick dopamine and cheap stimulation. And if that’s the case, I’m missing all the memories happening around me for what? Another upgrade in a video game? But when I try to engage in what’s happening around me, I just seem to make everyone more angry, including myself. What should I do?”

Another soul answered...

Helloo, I understand why you feel that, but please do whatever you wish deep in your heart, and you should not think that you are missing the world, you have to follow your heart and what it desires, and of course explore everything and see what are your likes and dislikes, because thats what shapes you as a person, so don't even think about people's opinion on what you should do or should enjoy, do what is best for you. And if what you do makes you happy and you are fine with it then thats it, no one should make you feel judged or worthless for living the life you want. And if you feel that the people surrounding you do not understand you or get your vibe, I really advise you to stop hanging out with them, and meet new people that like you. Maybe you are going to realise that it is necessary to move forward from the same people, they come and go, some stay and some leave, and thats the way of life. I also want to tell you that you also have to see and explore other activities and things, and get out of the house and the same four walls even if it may be your safe place, just go out and walk, enjoy the moment, and think of what things make you curious to do, im sure you have a lot you want to try, don't get frustrated about it and just try to be optimistic and that things will get better, and you will know eventually what you truly want and how you want your life to keep going. You are doing great, not all things are going to be clear for us. I hope you are doing great.

Another soul answered...

hey, that seems like a difficult thought circle, read the bible and Jesus can give you a little insight.