“im jealous of my best friend. i wish i were her. everytime im with her, i hate myself more. i cant unfriend her either. but im always glad when she isnt around me in school because thats when people truly see me or talk to me. its like i always disappear when shes with me. is it selfish to say i do like her but i feel so jealous of her that i might dislike her? i wish she were my friend but i wish i was like her too. it gets to the point that i feel like i actually dislike her sometimes. i know i am the bad person in this situation but is there a way to accept it and continue being friends with her”

Another soul answered...

Being jealous of someone does not make you a bad person, its a human emotion, something that is very common in this world. From my perspective, if someone is bothering your peace even though there is nothing really wrong that both of you are doing..its better to rethink the friendship, not because she is your enemy, but because you as a person are important. In order to have peace in life, you need to feel confident in yourself, you need to love yourself the most, and if the emotions that you are carrying about someone else are not allowing you that, its better to seperate yourself from this person. When we constantly compare ourselves to someone close to us, it gets even more painful, but at the end of the day, its important to realize that both of you are different people, what she has in life, you might not have it, what you have, she might not have. U need to realize that someone else's spark does not take away your spark, u remain as beautiful as anyone else. Both of you will get nothing out of being in this friendship if even one of you feels jealous, it becomes toxic day by day. Only continue such a friendship if you are ready to change your mindset, u need to start being a person of your own. Also pls remember, that if the only time you feel heard or seen is when she isn't with you, there might also be something wrong with the other company that u have (i'm assuming the "people" that u mentioned here are ur friends in school) if people that u know are genuienly not taking u seriously, its better to not blame urself only and look at the ppl too, such ppl are toxic. Pls prioritize time with someone that actually makes u feel good about yourself, and someone who listens to you and sees u. I wish u all the best, you are the one sitting in the driver's seat, u have the most power in ur hands, so do everything that u can to make the quality of your life better. And pls don't assume there is something wrong with u, this exact situation happens, everywhere it happens, it has happened to me too. And the truth is, none of these ppl last in your life, u always find better, and u always become a better person too.