“I'm in 12th grade, my board exams are coming up along with entrance exams, I wasted all of my 11th, idk why, maybe I was too burnt out. I tried in 12th but I literally cannot score in the mock tests for the life of myself. I worked hard once, twice thrice and eventually gave up. Spent months doing nothing, idk if it was depression but the past few months were such a blur. I made a promise to myself that I will wake up early and spend first hour of my morning outside running and walking, I think I'm doing a good job at it but I still cannot focus, I lack motivation, I was a star student till 10th grade and now I'm nothing but a failure every one else is better than me, idk why but cannot make up my mind to start working for my goals again because I'm so discouraged by my past results. I honestly feel like the situation I'm in cannot be saved now. I'm such a failure honestly, My parents wasted so much money on me, the past two years and they are even ready to do it for another year if i decide to take a drop. I've NEVER opened up to anyone about what's going on. My bestfriend (of three years now almost) studies in the same batch as me and tops the class, without putting in any effort, I'm happy for her not jealous or anything like that but I'm so insecure in myself cuz I'm like the dumbest among them all not literally but score-wise. I'm so hopeless, I have my first JEE attempt in January and honestly I'm not asking for tips or tricks to pass it or anything. I just wanna let it all out so I did, it's not like I don't wanna study, I want to buy i cannot idk why. If anyone can then please help me out”
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I won't give you study advice or what to do what not but I am also been there so you can take it as a guide form a person who did alot of mistakes my case was actually exactly same I also focus on emotions not on the task I want to tell you something please don't try to add bunch of things at a time like running everything I have been there too I also make timetable plan's like everything but I end up doing nothing right now for you your study is important don't try to do it for 10 hours give yourself small small task do it don't let emotions become so big I also have felt exactly same but I am now regretting because the clg I am in I would suggest you please study don't try to cover whole things but please do it otherwise you will regret good clg good company matters the most I am regretting my choice that I should have studied rather than focusing on my emotions or people please don't try to make each and everything possible but just start studying with small small topic then eventually add please don't be so isolated that will eventually affect you so meet your friends so you feel little better again do you work because isolated studying 10 hours doesn't work